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i seriously cannot think of any other titles... in abt 80 days (plus minus...) i'll be leaving the army... as much as i'm looking forward to it... i kinda miss it... haha... gone will be the days when we hang out everyday to chat abt stupid things and (emitted due to Official Secrets Act)... it has been fun... anyways... there are people in my life that i've never let go... and people in my life i can't seem to let go... but i guess i have to one day right? i'm confused... i'm lost... i... 苦茶 - 黑糖玛奇朵 In Solitude at 11:43 PM 0 shared in solitude it so appears that my entries are now once a month... i guess to ensure that every month is represented in the past entries links... being unable to blog frequently has become a habit... now... i'm just very used to not blogging... many times i tell myself.. i'm gonna blog abt this... i'm gonna blog abt tt... but i always seem to forget when i get back home.... anyone has any cures for this? sleepy sleepy sleepy... gona go to sleep now... the only thinkg i can think abt lately is this... good night everyone... and until next month... tanya chua - drops of jupitar In Solitude at 7:23 PM 0 shared in solitude it has been a long time since i've blogged... my brother cancelled the internet connection just like tt *snaps fingers* just becoz he is using it in office and feels he no longer needs it.. lotsa of thoughts have been translated to paper, lotsa of feelings gone unexpressed... old year gone, new year came... seasons passed, time goes on... i feel so old... so tired... so... sigh things are fine with me if u r wondering... things are mild in the army, my frenz are not seeing much of me but still remembers me... he is still in love with me... i'm still in love with him... we are still strongly together... so i guess 2008 has not really been a bad year... looking forward to 2009 coz i ORD!!! and i'm free... then i can do things i wanna do (like sleep very late and work full time)... anyways... i'll be back with more blog entries soon... i hope... sarah brightman - only an ocean away In Solitude at 2:42 AM 0 shared in solitude november is coming to an end... time flies... moses is clearing leave/off till ord... soon and very soon, i'll be left to take up most of wad he has left behind... these days, pple are comparing him and me... "u r becoming like moses" or "wah.. moses 2" and things like tt... it sounds so insulting (no offense moses) not becoz moses is not good, but becoz they make it sound like a bad thing... and no... i'm not becoming like him... as much as possible i would wanna run away... as much as possible i dun wanna do things... coz it is really not worth it... as much as possible i wanna leave on time and dun care... but it is not easy esp. when pple needs to get some stuff done and the others dun care... should i do tt too? been thinking a lot lately... as ORD draws near and 23 years is ending soon (though my b'day just pass not very long ago) i realise i really dunno wad i wan in life anymore... zh is right... m i just going to work in settlers for the rest of my life... wad is my backup plan? i dunno anything anymore i dunno myself anymore... 蔡健雅 - 失忆症 In Solitude at 9:07 PM 0 shared in solitude the little bird just flew into my window and told me that some of my specialists are reading my blog and found out tt i'm aj... then thru connections try to find out if i really declared... well is it not obvious? anyways... if u really wanna know... when u ord you can come ask me urself... i'll tell you... and if u wan me to blow u... tell me... i will blow u... kidding... i wun... maybe i will... blow literally... haha tanya - drops of jupitar In Solitude at 4:39 PM 0 shared in solitude so many days passed (or is it past... always confused...) since my last entry... so many things happened... 1. got my downpes cert liao... dated 020908 and got it mid october... kinda dumb... 2. over paid so SAF decided to cut my pay... left with 200 this month... 3. my dad got stroke... 4. wallaby... so my superiors not around... and i'm kina tired everyday... i dunno why... just wanna sleep and sleep and sleep... zzzzz suddenly lost all mood to blog... someday soon i'll be back... coco lee - zai jian yi mian In Solitude at 11:37 PM 0 shared in solitude In Solitude at 2:41 AM 0 shared in solitude so a new week has past... and in this week tt has past... something horrible happened... half of my family is down with hand-foot-mouth disease... and i'm left with no home to return to coz they dun wan me to stay home in fear tt i would get it since i was still sick... spent the weekend at baby's place... but well... enjoyed playing wow there... sleeping on a rather cooling and comfy leather sofa... but since i slept in the living room so been kinda tired... and it ate into my time in camp tis week... with wrong things typed in published orders and stuff i got a little snappy at the pple ard me and simple things pissed me off easier than before... as such... kinda pissed off lotsa pple... adding on to the fact tt i've been spending nights in the office staring at the computer or at pple using the computer... while whining abt the fact tt there is onli 1 working keyboard in the office... i've been tired... really tired... and it has onli been abt 2 weeks since i started as an clerk... one of the guys is right... like tt cannot take it liao... after moses leave how? i'm sorry for snapping at u after u said tt... though i know u probably wun ever read tis... so... i'll try to tone down a little... wake up earlier and pray and hope i'm able to deliver wad's entrusted to me... sigh~ tanya chua - ashes In Solitude at 12:33 AM 0 shared in solitude and so... something tt took so long to come and over so quickly... my birthday which is not today... it is on the 1st of September (for those who dunno)... wanna thank those who remembered and sent me a msg to wish me a happy birthday... wanna thank those who gave me gifts and cards.. wanna thank those who spent it with me... wanna thank him, my baby raccoon... this year's birthday is kinda miserable... coz i am sick so did not do anything much for it... just had dinner wif a few frenz... tt's all... and of coz have baby raccoon celebrating it with me... the greatest thing i've done in the past year... was to face who i m... and to declare... haha nth much to say actually... i mean there are lotsa stuff running in my mind but i guess there is nothing much to put onto the blog... so... explore the past year's worth of entries and celebrate the year that has past with me... and after u r done... explore the many year's worth of memories and celebrate me with me haha... enjoy the ride end roll - hamasaki ayumi In Solitude at 2:37 PM 0 shared in solitude tomorrow is my birthday... and on the eve on my birthday i discovered something... my blog has been featured on hardwarezone.com.sg apparently someone chance upon my blog (how i dunno) and found it interesting tt i've declared 302 and post it on the forums there... the moderator removed the thread and he opened another one asking why the mod removed it, without forgetting to repost the blog address... Questions: how did he chance upon my blog? who is he? why would he wanna post my blog add onto another forum? wad is so interesting abt me declaring? where else did he post my blog? when is he going to realise tt it is not very nice to do so... and tt there are pple wif different preference and there is no need to announce it? i'm fine wif pple reading my blog... i mean i've declared... i've decided tt i'm who i m and i dun really care wad u think of my orientation... wad i'm more concern abt is: WHY IS IT THAT WHO YOU ARE IS NEVER MORE IMPORTANT THAN WHAT YOU ARE? you can be a very good friend... but when he finds out u r gay... he avoids u... you can be a good staff... but u r not given a chance coz the boss thinks u r gay... you can contribute... but just because u r gay... they decided u r useless... is who i m more important or is wad i m really going to make tt much of a difference... just like having something against pple who dislike durians just because u like durian... and totally ignore all his potential contributions... i know it is different... but how different? the root of the idea is the same... look at who they are and wad they can do... not what they are, they preference and liking... we may like pple of the same gender... but like str8 guys... we know tt there are things we cannot force and PLEASE we have taste too... we dun devour everyting tt wears pants... enough said... i dun care abt all the hate comments so feel free to post them if u r so childish and gt too much time to waste... drops of jupitar - tanya chua In Solitude at 5:55 PM 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||