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slacking in Mac now... juz celebrated Ally B'day... had a rather fun day... met douggypoo(he'll kill me for this...) for brunch... then went TP to jalan jalan... then went for service after which went for Ally's b'day... then HE msg me to tell me that HE cut HIS finger... rather worried for HIM...then HE got headache etc... called HIM later in the night and HE was drying... now very worried about HIM.. hopefully HE slept at night.. had a fun time sharing stories wif Ally's stead... rather fun to have a army guy ard...
gonna go home to catch a short nap,go to jurong to study... and meet HIM at the same time... real worried abt HIM to didi:i know the sadness... really worried for HIM also... gonna drag HIM to temple or something to get a talisman for HIS safety... or buy HIM a bible or something... sigh... i will miss HIM... alot... imagine... 3 weeks wifout HIM... except Xmas and new year... then can only see HIM once a week... but nvm... ri jiu sen qing... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...can't take it anymore... gonna look for Mr Zhou... i can hear my bed calling my name... "Tim... Tim..." i'm coming... wait for me... HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLY!!! May your everyday be filled with joy and laughter and special pple ard you to share all those moments... Have a great 20th year ahead of you and may success find her way to you in all you do... jukebox[radio playing at Mac] In Solitude at 6:35 am 0 shared in solitude missed my whole term test mainly b'cozz of the fever virus... or is it flu... gee... then Yong called and then i decided to give DD a final try but not expecting to pass it anyway... and alas... after 2 sleepless nights, i completed the drawings... 3 tutorials... hahaha... beginning to feel the toil on my body... i m old... sigh... things are ok now... and the stress is over, for now... when the retest period for the term test comes, then i will feel stress again..but nonetheless... i can finally relax... the next thing on my list is to clean up my room... HE is going into the army soon... in less than 50 days time... really worried for HIM... HE is kinda getting too worried abt things n i fear tt HE might think too much... well tt's all i guess... life's always the same... like a vaccum cleaner... it sucks... jukebox[yuan wei jue xing - guo qi] In Solitude at 5:41 pm 0 shared in solitude yesterday was HIS birthday and really enjoyed the time we had yesterday... met a long lost friend and got his number but the key was his birthday... today is our 1st month together... we spent the night together and really i enjoyed myself in HIS arms last night... but HE is too worried about his enlistment on 17th Dec... really wish i can help him cool down... but i understand how he feels... the fear of the unexpected (not ghost... NS) can be overwhelming... now in school... suppose to be studying for my ECT but i cannot find the ppt Ms Koh use to teach... so i have to use the notes with veyr little info to study... and i dunno where my notes are.. sure fail my ECT AGAIN... but it is ok... at most spend one year to retake...which means i will graduate in 2008 instead of 2007 which is already 2 years behind most pple of my batch...crap... but the good thing is tt i juz finished wad my grams got me into... a script for my cousin for his A-levels... m kinda worried abt HIM now... HE is reaidng my blog and HE told me HE felt like crying... if YOU are reaidng this... dun think too much or worry too much... i'm fine... nothing is your fault ok? jukebox[yuan wei jue xing xiao shi hou] In Solitude at 7:13 pm 0 shared in solitude been rather busy lately...but things have been reasonably well... went ChinaBlack on Sat... quite fun...juz angry with the management for the re-entry thing... but munz explained it so not tt bad... very tired lately... very sleepy and dizzy... it is gonna be 1 month soon... tomorrow... HE is going into NS soon too... December... sigh... no mood and nth much... sigh... In Solitude at 1:49 pm 0 shared in solitude a new song... i like it... heard it from Qiang Wei Zi Lian... enjoy it... Some say love, it is a river That drowns the tender reed Some say love, it is a razor That leaves your soul to bleed Some say love, it is a hunger An endless aching need I say love, it is a flower And you its only seed It's the heart afraid of breaking, That never learns to dance It's the dream afraid of waking, That never takes the chance It's the one, who won't be taken Who cannot seem to give And the soul afraid of dying, That never learns to live When the night has been too lonely And the road has been too long When you feel that love is only For the lucky and the strong Just remember in the winter Far beneath the bitter snow Lies the seed that with the sun's love In the spring becomes the rose In Solitude at 7:00 pm 0 shared in solitude completed most of my assignments and and all my presentations... only ECT report left.. my presentation results so far: Report: self A, group A OC: self A, group A today was my RWP group presentation... last of all my presentation... pretty well done... juz tt i think i was too nervous and i was not really preapred but teachers think i did well...however teachers agreed tt i have to look out for my arrogance... must keep it in check... coz me sound very dominating and proud... so must be humble... HUMILITY!!! well been struggling wif pride... the deadliest of the 7 deadly sins... sigh... nth much to worry now... only my last report, then have to rush my ECT studying coz i dunno wad the lecturer is saying... and nth much to fear... juz study my Law, my ECT, practise my CADD then worry a little abt my building science and then it is the holidays~~~~~~~~~ hahaha... met ally and HIM yesterday... got a modern beauty be santuary spa package for 30$... a trail one tt is... and will be going wif Ally... and i also bought a CD... Yuan Wei Jue Xing... been lookin for it for a long time... should be released for 3 mths+ already... but dun seem to be able to find it... now... i own it... yeah... ok lah... gtg rush off somewhere.. update tmr? i will be completing my last report and I'm free~~~~ *dances* (sings) celebrate good times come on~ where is Koon? i can't seem to find his blog... sigh... and read didi blog... cheer up...been thru all these nonsense... if u need someone to help... ur kor is still here... dun forget me ok... i know u got dear dear and another kor... but if u need help... feel free to find me... jukebox[lalalallalalalllaaalallalalalalala] In Solitude at 5:12 pm 0 shared in solitude real stress lately... as seen in the previous blog tt i still got a number of stuff to submit... here is the brief update of my project stuff: 1st Oct my first project due...OC grp got 83 for tt presentation 7th October: RWP report, RWP grp presentation, IDEA busness proposal, IDEA business presentation 8th Oct OC self presentaion i got 85 for tt... but will be moderated... coz the whole class quite high... 11 Oct RWP grp need to do ppt and presentation script and CADD 12 Oct ECT report due... i have not even started on my law yet... and i wun be doing my drawings... feeling pissed at myself... onli know how to make HIM angry wif me... onli know how to irritate HIM... i'm sorry... jukebox[speed walking in the rain] In Solitude at 2:06 pm 0 shared in solitude after the hectic rush of all my project... finally can quiet down and settle for some updates of this f-ed up life... Some brief updates as a whole: my class is officially outcasting me... there is an event going on... and the whole class is invited... cannot consider whole class coz i was not invited... although i wun be able to make it... at least ask... but well they dun like me... first was Angel...who think i like her...bitch... then is Joey and Zhao Na... then now Jasmine and group is kinda away and avoidant... i feel soooo useless in my interpersonal relationship... is there anything wrong wif me... to pple... i m like a confident and somewad arrogant guy... but how many really know how much i struggle wif the avoidant they made me face... there seem to be no one in class i can talk to...let alone trust... and i still have 3 years in the poly... life is miserable here... went to towelclub not long ago... it seem like a nice place for relaxation... not there for anything ok... submitted most of my projects now... only CADD, ECT, and RWP... 1 presentation 1 report and 1 drawing... feeling very pissed now... wif myself actually... i m screwing my drawing up, screwing my interpersonal relationship wif my fren, my education and basically my life... actually a little sucidal but well... i wun... i would wallow in self pity... condemn and swear at myself but wun suicide... wadeva... i deserve to be put to death dun i... going home to do the drawing then see how things goes... hopefully i can have a fresh start wif my relation wif my class come next sem but i doubt it would work out well... i feel like crying... 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