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Virgo is such interesting creature. Nobody but themselves can blame them for something. The pride a Virgo has for herself is very high, but a Virgo is not really known for her high self esteem. And many things in my life right now, I blame myself. Looking back at the past 25 years, I realise I have no accomplishments. I only have an O-level cert, worked as a Branch Manager for sucky pay and now an Executive with no colleagues coz the company is really small. The only thing that seem to be in my favor is that I got a boyfriend who is always there to push me to perform. But as it goes on, it really feels that I am keeping him back from something better. What I can give dun seem to be what he wants and what he wants is what I struggle to keep up. Adding on to that is a sucky family situation, almost evicted from my flat coz Dad did not pay the mortgage. Adding on to that is a sucky business I got myself into. So what if I am a boss of a cafe, the cafe is struggling to survive and the partners are not very useful. 1/4 of a century later, I seem to be on the same spot as I have been when I graduated from St Pat's so many years ago. Maybe a few more lousy years and stupid relationships and a boyfriend who I know really loves me. But nothing ever changed. It is a wonder why I am not suicidal. But then again, Virgoans are not suicidal type. They prefer to shut all the feelings within and kill themselves from inside. Anyhow, with my birthday coming, it being 25 years, I wish for all who are attached to stay happily attached and for greater freedom for ajs to fully be themselves. Most importantly, I wish baby will be happy, no matter what happens to or with me. Maybe... Just maybe, I will blog more often... starting from my birthday... Petits chanteurs de Saint Marc - Les avions en papier In Solitude at 5:21 pm 1 shared in solitude |
Many times I tell myself I would blog about this and blog about that, but it never did come to pass. I have been neglecting my blog. I would like to blame everything around me, but as usual, I blame myself.