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when u saw me play mahjong and get angry when u were frantically trying to help me when u were lamenting in tears after i told u my posting when u were so quiet while playing game when u stormed out of the cafe when u just kept walking wifout looking back when u sounded so cold when u lost control and cried over the phone when... when... i hated myself... i'm useless... i promised u i'll give u happiness... i promised u i'll not make u cry... i promised u yet... is it better to let u feel the pain in one go and then u move on... free happy stress-less or keep u wif me... jinx stressed unhappy i dun dare to promise u anything now... i'll try my best... i love u baby... and i'll try my best... to make you happy not to make you cry i'll try... 孙燕姿 - 我怀念的 In Solitude at 11:58 pm 0 shared in solitude unable to update much ever since things got busy in NS and i struggled to keep myself attached to the world at large missed major updates on my birhtday, pop and most importnatly my month-niversary glad to have met baby... and really thankful tt he stood by me during this 3 mths... thanks baby for always being there... for bearing with the fact tt i dun have much time for u... thanks for everything u've been there may be some clashes, friction and all... but u had been by my side when i needed u... u had been a support and really... i see myself loving u more and more... i love u... anyways... i finally passed out as a pte... whee~ after tt had a chalet and met wif some old friends... now... i have abt 10 days of break... the thing abt NS... makes my life boring... and me sleepy all the time... In Solitude at 12:38 am 0 shared in solitude after 13 weeks in p. Tekong, ledang camp... the BMT phase of NS has ended... whee~ happy tt i no longer need to return to tt island... but kinda sad tt i will now be away from the closely-knitted buddies i've spent 3 mths wif.. learnt alot, seen a lot and had a lot of memories from this 3 mths... let's hope we wun forget each other "life is worth living only because of the memories it creates... you had made my life worth living even more" fei lun hai - yi ge ren liu lang In Solitude at 12:33 am 0 shared in solitude my birthday came and went... could not update coz i was either in camp... or on the day itself... i was busy trying to spend time in civilization... almost could not book out... was recalled for situational test... but managed to convince 2LT Jasper to let me skip it... so can book out to celebrate my birthday... celebrated it wif baby, ally and crowd at settlers katong... incurred the warth of a few customers which my staff brush them off wif "he is our manager" haha... so gt 'exclusive' use of the room... the staff working tt day joined in the celebrations... no pics sadly... coz i did not bring my camera phone out... then had dinner wif baby, jes, douggy and munz... had fun crapping but wad was most rewarding tt night was a talk wif douggy... really missed the times when we discussed abt everything and anything... we talked abt NS, AWOL, child-likeness and childishness, memories and many others... i made an agreement with myself last year after my 21st birthday celebration when i did a chalet that from 22nd birthday onwards, i wun have any special arrangements, no organising to ask pple out... if u wanna celebrate my birthday wif me u will ask me out... if nt, i also dun wanna ask u to... and i guess quality is definately better than quantity... this year has been a memorable one... 1 year had passed just like tt... i had a failed relationship, gt into a new one in this one year... i gt promoted to the highest post in settlers and then break for ns... i had a lot of accomplishments and regrets... but if there was anything i learnt in this year... it would be... I dun really wanna care wad other pple think of me already... i mean if it is really for my good... they will tell me (like douggy... my neverfailing mirror) and not talk behind my back... and i m who i m... i m a frivolous, flamboyant guy... i m tim... if there is anything u r not happy abt me... tell me str8... but repectfully pls... coz i'll respect u and trust u... anyways... wanna thank those who remembered my birthday on 1st september... thanks baby for the gifts thanks ally and crowd for coming down to settlers thanks jes, munz, douggy for spending dinner wif me sun yan zi - wo huai nian In Solitude at 11:37 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||