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I was in a good mood until my sister called my grams to tell her tt she will not be home tonight due to rpoject work... she started to scold her and then 'scolded' me as well... she tell my sis abt me failing thus having to meet lecturer and wad not... pissed~~~ good mood: I AM SELECTED FOR THE DIPLOMA PROGRAM BY FUN STAGE!!! bad thing though: i need to find SGD 3600 for the fees... Love Spit Love - How Soon Is Now In Solitude at 9:52 pm 0 shared in solitude that is the assurance i'm giving to all who are worried... it is just tt i'm tired of the family and at tt time i was really feel foul... which explains why the post... but i'm fine... really... well these few days was fun in a way... been hanging out with Dallas, Roy and Tim alot chilling and enjoying each others' presence... they all gt very comfy in calling me grandma... so comfy tt all the others are also calling me grandma... and i gt comfy calling Ashton Sher... haha... had the sgboyx SP thread outing on tuesday... it was fun seeing the old pple chilling and the new pple joining us... hope they enjoyed themselves... i'm falling in love with settler's... haha also been seeing Dar despite agreeing tt we wun meet each other till his papers are over... pissed him quite a bit in this time and also gt him worried... but things are well... family has cooled down alot... and now... we dun really tok to avoid conflict... and i basically dun care much any more... went for my appeal today... the deputy director said tt a letter from the doctor proving tt i have insomnia and now undergoing treatment will bring up my chances for a successful appeal... and i will get tt letter tmr... but seriously... i'm leaving everything in God's hand... if His plan is for me to carry on the course of study He will let the appeal be successful... if not... I pray sincerely that He will make the appeal fail... i'm leaving it all to His hands... and if it is successful... it means tt i would be able to go thru it and emerge triumphant... so i'm gonna put in all the effort and do my best... and let Him do the rest... Dar~ everything is gonna be fine... i'll be here for you... i may irritate you a lot... i may bring u much worry and trouble... but i will see thru all these with you... Raine Yang Cheng Lin - Ai Mei In Solitude at 6:33 pm 0 shared in solitude I read the 2 comments in my previous post and can't help crying... thanks Jes, Trina and Dar for the msg on comments and tagboard... i'm fine... just tt sometimes family is overwhelming... the past few days are great... thursday spent it with dar on movie marathon... the maid, howl's moving castle and phantom of the opera... friday was my audition with fun stage... left dar's place late and was panicking... but it turned out just fine... sorry dar for bombing ur sms and for making u angry and worried... i know u r not really happy and tt made u kinda argue with ur mum... but the audition was cool... saturday suppose to go for the tomb tour by SPI... but i was late coz grams prepared my lunch and she insist that i eat before going out... halfway got diarrhea... took a cab to zion road instead to meet them but still too late... gave up and went to meet dallas, roy, tim... msged dallas but he no reply... so i msged tim and roy instead... at the end is the replies did not get thru... and i thought he dun wanna waste msg or something... haha... bought gelato for them and we had a gelato treat together... (they paid for the gelato of coz... no money to treat... haha) greg joined us, zeke too then they left while we are left to chill and suddenly the idea of going overseas was brought up and suddenly we had endless to talk abt.. tim have to leave so we decided to move the chatting to tim's void deck... and the three of us talked abt lotsa stuff... greg joined tim came down then went home and we chilled till today 7.30am... talked abt staying in australia together... abt doing a drama production soon... and many other stuff... we all just couldn't stop talking... on the way home... i felt tt it was really great at tis point of time to have gotten to know ashton, dallas and roy... shared many stuff and talked abt many stuff... i dunno... maybe because they are frenz... they dun take understanding for granted and makes the effort to empathise and understand... being at home... it feels tt everyone wants to be understood but no one wanna understand and sometimes it is extremely taxing to be at home... i like hanging out wif my frenz and dar... at least i feel more comfortable with them... it feels suddenly tt i'm not alone... i'm wif pple who will be there... family seemed to have collaspe after she joined the family... family is no longer wad it is suppose to be... and as if it was not bad enough... Ohana... it means family... no one gets left behind... (Lilo and Stitch) my family... everyone is leaving seperate lifes... coming back to the house to sleep eat and chill... home is no longer home... and it is now tt i've decided... i've done enough for the family... since i m old enough till now... tis year i turn 21... i've been looking out for the family... my oldest bro for himself and my sis for herself... i got enough of cleaning up after their mess... esp. after today when i told my sis something my bro said and i gt scolded for starting a quarrel... it is time they clean their own mess... my responsibility is over... it was never mine to begin with... i have to carry the responsibility of the eldest and he gets away with all the privellges of the birthright... i'm tired... Liang Jing Ru - Lu In Solitude at 9:34 am 0 shared in solitude sometimes i evny those who can post thought provoking post... and those who can post comments commanding post... but after a while wad really matters are not thought provoking... but wad's inside my heart... wad is important is not loads of comments from pple i dunno (although it would be nice) but blessings and encouragements from pple i call dear... i've been thinking and at this point of time... at a moment when everything seems so confusing and overwhelming... when everything seem to beat me down... i wanna take tis chance to encourage myself by remember a few special pple in my life: douglas: surprising the first ame tt came into my mind is you... for u had been by my side... encouraging me... helping me see things and pushing me on... i would sometimes think wad would douglas say abt tis when things happen... indeed... u had been a support... ally: well now tt u have ricko and i have thomas and we have lesser time for each other... i know whenever i need u... u would (try to hehe...) be there for me... u r right... who would have thought tuition frenz would develop into something like tt... jes: to be honest... i did not have a good impression of u in the beginning... i guess it is a stage where we get to know each other better and we rubbed shoulders the wrong way... but i m really thankful tt in the end we turn out to be supporters of each other... and u have been a great fren and sister to hang out wif and share problems wif... thanks trina, munz: u two had been good frenz of mind... helping me along the way and silently supporting me... u may not talk much or share much... but ur presence with well-wishes has not gone to waste... tim: i had hurt u before... but u did not really hold it against me yet support and spur me on... thanks... dallas: well it is somethingu said tt made my day... tt made me feel worthy... something abt being ur confident... thanks for trusting me... i may not know how to be one... but i will try... many others: Ashton, Roy, Ronald, Yvonne, Bryan, Jeremy, Ezekiel and many others... thanks for calling me a fren (or once call me a fren) the fact i made it into ur frenz list is comforting enough... tis is not a suicide note... dun worry... just feelin a little emotional... thomas: little did i expect us to head down tis path coz we both have given up on love... but we r... hand in hand we're gonna see each other thru ok... i know u r upset abt the way i decided just now... but i guess everything turned out well... i'm sorry tt i flooded ur sms and made u worried... i'm sorry to cause u and ur mum to argue... i'm sorry... darn... i'm crying again... baby... i love you... i know u r worried for me... and really thank you for supporting me... and to those named and un-named... all you've done for me has kept me going on... ur recognition and affirmation... ur encouragements and blessings... thanks... u all mean so much to me now... and in the midst of confusion, darkness and uncertainty... u r like the stars... guiding me along... giving me strength and faith... thanks... Sun Yan Zi - Yan Lei Cheng Si In Solitude at 1:05 am 2 shared in solitude today darn pissed... dunno why... very bad mood... we decided not to meet each other till after his exams... for him to study and for me to have some time for myself... but i miss him badly... i guess i would just have to get use to seeing him less... i flunk my papers... not permitted to carry on course of study... am feeling real bad and alot of pple are putting me down... my grams kept scolding me after i told her abt it... i mean i'm beating myself up enough already about this and i dun need you beating me up too... a part of me wanna continue... i mean tis course i've been studying for 2 yrs and i onli fail tt one module 2x... the rest i still can pass... should i take the chance and chiong tt one module 1 more time? i wan a diploma badly... and my aculative GPA is still a pass... meaning tt i still can make it... but the other part... it is wasting lotsa time... wad if i fail again? then it is really useless... and i'm kinda tired wif tis course... i wanna go NS quick then do something else with my life... but if i quit now... all i have is an o-level cert... i can go nowhere... take part time dip? go australia? i dunno... and i fear tt path... yet carry on with the appeal seems meaningless too... sigh~ bright side watched date movie wif dar, jes and munz... then watch v for vendatta wif dallas, roy, zeke and tim (zeke's fren) and i enjoyed myself out wif them... i go appeal then see if approve or not then decide... i dunno wad should i do now... i miss u dar~ i really do... alex toh & shunza - zhen de xiang ni In Solitude at 3:18 pm 3 shared in solitude Day 8 17th March i helped budi send ice cream to all the outlets... cool... saw the machines, the storage... saw the diff outlets and how they store ice cream... saw the loading bay of tangs, paragon, ps, marina and suntec... then had dinner wif dar and jes... Day 9 18th March he had his band while i sleep... met him after his band to meet ally and ricko for dinner then jes and munz for boardgame at marine parade new boardgame cafe... had lotsa fun... he came over to sleep... Day 10 19th March i worked while he slept... had some problems brought up and i did not really sleep well... but we solved it and things are fine now Day 11 20th march in school now with him beside me... he wrote me a letter... a confession... and well... i'm touched... really... later we will be going to watch Date movie with munz and jes then chill and crap... -*~*- update 12.30am just came back from movie and crapping... read the letter on the bus again... heehee... freaky thing happened... when jes and munz board the bus there was this guy glaring at me pointing his middle finger at me... i boarded 106 to 'escape' and when i looked out of the window.. there he was pointing his middle finger at me again... sigh~ -*~*- baby... i love you... i do... and i respect wadeva decisions u make... i'm glad u chosen me... like wad i wrote... i'm already urs... Elva Xiao Ya Xuan - Ni Shi Wo Xin Zhong Yi Ju Jing Tan In Solitude at 4:55 pm 1 shared in solitude just feel like doing it... although this is not really suppose to be a place where i record events... Day 4 13th March he came over to my place coz we wanna go to mount vernon but we did not... so he slacked at my place.. made his blog entry watched VCD (NO... not porn... i may be horny all the time but i dun watch porn all the time...) intro him to a couple of frenz online... he did his research on his stuff and i see him off... Day 5 14th March i worked and he had school... met dallas in the afternoon after we all are late... finally gotta see the legendary 'chramed sisters' Ashton looked the same... as usual... been a long time since i last saw him... met Roy... he is nice... very active and cheerful... Dallas is kinda cool... fun and child-like... somehow they fit into the profiles of Prue, Piper and Pheobe... after tt rushed for work... 5 suppose to start but onli reach at 5.45pm... new colleague Siew Ling is very boring... she dun tok and she kinda like live in a world of her own... did not meet him today... we all are busy... Day 6 15th March met him after school and i was late... went over to his palce to watch vcds... rented them from VideoEzy and rushed over to NYP... met him and decided to take bus... on the bus he told me a bit of his ex... and tt his mum knows abt us and is ok with it... wow.. tis is nice... ate pasta at his place with lotsa snacks... watch Quill and cried haha... Day 7 16th march here i m updating my blog while he is preparing to go tos ch... he is late... and i hope i'm not delaying him... gonna go home and sleep then watch Just Like Heaven... coz it was too soft last night he did not watch it in the end... not gonna meet him today... coz i wanna stay home rest, watch vcd and sweep and mop the house again... then maybe do some other chores... In Solitude at 11:01 am 1 shared in solitude http://www.fridae.com/newsfeatures/article.php?articleid=1635&viewarticle=1 read the article and then my comments... tis is stupid... i mean... why did tt news make it into headlines? the thing abt the news is that it must be impartial and factual... yet hidden in it are prejudice and discrimination... why is the news higlighted? just because gays were involved... we are the minority... and the minority is always ignored... we tend to flow with the majority thinking that if most think tt way they probably would be right... but well... read tis post: http://thehermit85.blogspot.com/2004/05/which-would-you-choose.html the majority maybe wrong... like wad is written in the article: "What if we substituted "Tamils"(it should be Indians... Tamil is a language) or "Muslims" for the word "gays"? You would immediately sense that it would be hurtful to Tamils (Indians) or Muslims since many are prone to casting aspersions on people of a different race or religion." So why is gays ok? we are also humans... will it not be hurting to us as well? slowly... i'm losing confidence in the media of Singapore... we should preserve cohesiveness in s'pore... i guess if Mr Rajaratnam knows about this... he would probably wrote the pledge this way: "... ... regardless of race, language, religion and sexuality, to build a democractic society... ..." i guess s'pore is still a long way to really fulfilling the REAL meaning behind the pledge... to build s'pore as one people, one nation, one s'pore... we are not really one... we are being picked out and discriminated... ywjx - kao jing In Solitude at 2:46 am 2 shared in solitude today is suppose to be 12 March... day 3... (plan to update before midnight but stupid internet keep dc so by the time i'm done... it is late...) been spending loads of my time with him lately... talk abt me wanting my personal space... haha... but i guess i would force myself to split from him to hang out wif my other frenz... so tt he can hang out wif his frenz as well... how it started: got him to ECP on 10 March abt 12 midnight then spoke to him... make it sound like i wanna end everything... then can see he was kinda disappointed: me:"i guess it is time to end the dating period" him:"ok..." (silence) me:"coz... i wanna propose to you... will u be my stead?" (put ring on his finger) him:"ahhhhhhhhhh" kinda fun... haha... he stayed over at my place coz bro guard duty... after tt he went to sch went to work while i met CJ, Guan, Hanwei for dinner then Ken and Jeslyn to chill a while then Jes to meet him... chilled wif them in his store till abt 1 plus 2 then we go maxwell to meet his fren... saw daniel along the way but did not see him coz my specs were off... haha... went home abt 4 plus gt scolded by grams and had a emotional breakdown day 2: 11 March had my CDAC hosting... reach there at 11am then started to gt myself busy helping them and stuff... got up to host and marvelled myself with the level of chinese... haha... GOH was Minister in the Prime Minister's Office, Deputy Secretary-General NTUC and Chairman of the Board of Directors CDAC, Minister Lim Swee Say... he shake hands with me 4 times... 1. when he was invited on stage 2. when he stepped off stage for reception and press briefing 3. when i was talking to him during the reception 4. when he was taking his leave i got captured on tv... my ass tt is... i was bending down talking to a junior when the cameraman was filming another group of guys talking... i did not know the camera is there and on the news... my ass... darn... met him after the event and went to his house to chill... on our way there... i emotional again... esp. after i saw the way a mother was smiling when she look at her boy sleep... then when he is sliding off the seat... how she immediately picked him up and cradle him... i begin to wonder how my mum will look like when she sees me sleep... i miss her... reached his place... watched the news and the pianist(great show) his godbro came and left after a short while... talked to him and he saw me cry *shy* day 3: 12 March saw him off to work then went home and rest for a short while... got stuck in a freaking jam and was very late... the jam to get into suntec area abt 15 mins... got into suntec then stuck for about 15 mins... never move from the stop... 5 groups of pple alighted from the bus and the once filled bus became empty... ok nt really empty but no one was standing... started work... BL joined the sunday crew... he came look for me for my break and i saw him home... almost could not come home coz i really dun wan to... tmr (which technically is today) we are meeting to go Mount Vernon coz my mum's death anniversary coming soon... then he will chill at my place... probably go east coast to cycle or something... haha... ask him how... so from the next statement onwards... he shall be referred to as 'dar' sorry dar... been exploiting u since day 1... soon... ur turn will come to exploit me... sorry i cannot share ur burden just now... Alex Toh & Shunza - Zhen De Xiang Ni In Solitude at 1:56 am 1 shared in solitude Wrote 2 poems on 11th March 2006 Broken Family I'm lost, I'm hurt, I'm confused The confidence once there no longer stands What is left, I do not know For all I believed in failed me thoroughly A shelter from hurt a haven that's safe These foreign terms seem so far away The love I felt from so long ago Seems like a dream that will never come true Holding on, trust with faith, believing very hard Trying to convince myself that it can be A home for me to keep harm at bay Yet the most pain I feel came from within Is it too much. I asked myself For a family to lift me above my fears The broken fanily leaves me no doubt The blessings of others will never belong to me ©110306 Tim To 'him' The sweetness of love I once lost The pangs of lonliness I once endured You crossed my path Gave me faith You came to me Things have changed You held me close Called me dear Fate smiled at me Now I'm yours It's not for eternity That's never true As long as possible We'll see through ©110306 Tim Coco Lee - Wo Yi Ran Shi Ni De Qing Ren In Solitude at 1:20 am 0 shared in solitude i lost my keys at East Coast just now... went from ECP to Joo Chiat to eat supper then have to retrace the whole route just to find the keys sitting there just as it is untouched by a couple who occupied that area after i left... today is a special day... i'm in mac... suppose to boycott mac... but sitting here drinking coke and updating my blog... so much for boycotting it... hahaha... but tt's not the reason why today is a special day... heeheehee In Solitude at 2:56 am 1 shared in solitude i dunno should i be pissed at my sister's fren for being such a jerk or should i be pissed at my sister for nt really involving me when she has problems... the gal(let's call her J) spilled water on her phone due to some reasons and my sis did not save the phone in time, causing the phone to be spoilt... she now demands my sister pay her 1K for the phone she has been using for more than 1 year... and my sis has been rallying her frenz to help her... sigh~ thanks for regarding me special... sometimes i really fear disappointing u... In Solitude at 12:43 am 3 shared in solitude http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp You entered: my name There are 16 letters in your name.Those 16 letters total to 91There are 5 vowels and 11 consonants in your name. Your number is: 1 The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual. The expression or destiny for #1:A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions. Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind. The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage. Your Soul Urge number is: 11 A Soul Urge number of 11 means: With the 11 Soul Urge, much of your thinking and interests relate to the abstract, the spiritual, and utopian dreams. You are motivated toward idealistic concepts, and the sharing of your ideas and concepts with humanity. This number is not one that is giving in a material or a practical sense, but rather one who desires to help mankind with a more abstract commodity such as religion, spiritualism, occult studies, or even psychic abilities. If you possess the positive 11 Soul Urge traits, you have a dream of the perfect world; you are highly idealistic and inspirational. Your inner strength and devotion to your beliefs are extremely strong. You have a very good mind that is especially well equipped to handle the higher, more abstract forms of thought. If there is an excess of 11 energy in your makeup, you may possess some the negative 11 traits. There is a tendency for the 11 to produce considerable amounts of nervous tension which is bought on by a very high level of awareness. You may be too sensitive and overly emotional. In some cases, these sensitivities and emotions are quite repressed, and this tends to add even more to the sense of nervousness in the makeup. The strong 11 is not a very practical person because of the extreme idealism; often, there is a degree of self-deception present. There is usually a rather fixed idea of right and wrong held by those showing strong 11 traits, and with this very often is a resulting attitude of inflexibility. Your Inner Dream number is: 8 An Inner Dream number of 8 means: You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur. http://www.paulsadowski.com/birthday.asp You were born under the astrological sign Virgo. Your Life path number is 6. The Life Path 6 suggests that you entered this plane with tools to become the ultimate nurturer, and a beacon for truth, justice, righteousness, and domesticity. Your paternal, or maternal, as the case may be, instincts with a 6 Life Path exceed all others by a considerable margin. Whether in the home or in the work place, you are the predominant caretaker and family head. While the 6 may assume significant responsibilities in the community, the life revolves around the immediate home and family, for this is the most domestic of numbers. Conservative principles and convictions are deeply ingrained and define your character. You are idealistic and must feel useful to be happy. The main contribution you make is that of advice, service, and ever present support. You are a humanitarian of the first order. It is your role to serve others, and you start in the home environment. You are very human and realistic about life, and you feel that the most important thing in your life is the home, the family and the friends. This is the Life Path related to leadership by example and assumption of responsibility, thus, it is your obligation to pick up the burden and always be ready to help. If you are like the majority with Life Path 6, you are one who will willingly carry far more than your fair share of any load, and you are always there when needed. In doing so, you take ownership and often become an authority over the situation. In romance, the 6 is loyal and devoted. A a caretaker type, you are apt to attract partners who are somewhat weaker and more needy than yourself; someone you can care for and protect. The main ingredient that must prevail in the relationship is complete harmony. You don't function well in stressful relationships that become challenges for you to control. It is the same with friends, you are loyal and trustworthy. But there is a tendency for you to become dominating and controlling. It's likely you feel compelled to function with strength and compassion. You are a sympathetic and kind person, generous with personal and material resources. Wisdom, balance, and understanding are the cornerstones of your life, and these define your approach to life in general. Your extraordinary wisdom and the ability to understand the problems of others is apt to commence from an early age. This allows you to easily span the generation gap and assume an important role in life early on. The number 6 Life Path actually produces few negative examples, but there are some pitfalls peculiar to the path. You may have a tendency to become overwhelmed by responsibilities and a slave to others, especially members of you own family or close friends. It's easy for you to fall into a pattern of being too critical of others; you also have a tendency to become to hard on yourself. The misuse of this Life Path produce tendencies for you to engage in exaggeration, over-expansiveness, and self-righteousness. Modesty and humility may not flow easily. Imposing one's views in an interfering or meddling way must be an issue of concern. The natural burdens of this number are heavy, and on rare occasions, responsibility is abdicated by persons with this Life Path 6. This rejection of responsibility will make you feel very guilty and uneasy, and it will have very damaging effects upon your relationships with others. Life Path information © Michael McClain 1996-2006. Permission is granted for unlimited noncommercial use. All other rights reserved. Your birth tree is Pine Tree, the Particularity Loves agreeable company, very robust, knows how to make life comfortable, very active, natural, good companion, but seldom friendly, falls easily in love but its passion burns out quickly, gives up easily, many disappointments till it finds its ideal, trustworthy, practical. The moon's phase on the day you were born was waning gibbous. deleted alot of details Thanks Dom for inspiring tis post! did nothing much but worry today... glad tt all is turning out well now... Dai Pei Ni - Wo Yao De Ai In Solitude at 8:50 pm 0 shared in solitude 10 Ways to Improve Relational Skills 1. SPEAK TO PEOPLE. There is nothing as nice as a cheerful word of greeting! 2. SMILE AT PEOPLE. It takes seventy-two muscles to frown, only fourteen to smile. 3. CALL PEOPLE BY NAME. The sweetest music to anyone's ear is the sound of ones own name! 4. BE FRIENDLY AND HELPFUL. If you would like to have friends, then, be friendly! 5. BE CORDIAL. Speak and act as if everything you do were a genuine pleasure!(If it is right and good, it really should be.) 6. BE GENUINELY INTERESTED IN PEOPLE. Empathy means involvement! 7. BE GENEROUS WITH PRAISE and cautious with criticism! 8. BE CONSIDERATE WITH THE FEELINGS OF OTHERS. It will be appreciated. 9. BE THOUGHTFUL OF THE OPINIONS OF OTHERS. There are three sides to controversy--yours, the other fellows and the right one! 10. BE ALERT TO GIVE SERVICE. What counts most in life is who we are in Christ and then what we do for others! Contributed by Richard Krejcir ponder abt it pple... sorry i promised i would sleep early... i go sleep now... Hillsong Australia - To You Alone In Solitude at 2:15 am 0 shared in solitude many weird things happening lately... had this weird dream... in this dream... i was in drag (i look kinda nice... ok fine... maybe onli my eyes... and i lost weight...) in a particular club... (more of a chill out bar tt kinda place) and i m sure it is for ajs... (how u may ask... for crying out loud... it's my dream...) so after a while... i decided to rest on the sofa seat... then i saw... a few leaders from my fomer church and they saw me... and they told me they are here on a lookout coz a lot of the church pple are in tt club and they wanna fish them out... weird right? tt's the weirdest part... the rest is nth... BL has been acting weird... met him last week... and was tellin me how cute my colleague is... (colleague is a guy) then toked abt his gal fren and stuff... then he suddenly ask me if i would turn gay and toked abt the perks of being gay and back to his galfren... then he called me recently and when i say i'm nt free he was whinning abt losing his position in my priority list and he really sound upset abt it... then just he was askin me how my thinkin went... i asked him wad difference it made... then he say (and i quote) "i wanna try wad it is like to be gay..." i mean... tt sounds weird right? is he sounding me out or is he hinting something... i'm confused... and to tt someone who really wanna know... (enough askin ok?) yes i'm dating him... to see if we work out and stuff... so it ain't official yet... but u can say tt i m seeing someone special... Dai Pei Ni - Wo Yao De Ai In Solitude at 1:09 am 0 shared in solitude guess this is post number wad... DUN tag... comment... did not go for my papers today... B. Material Semestral Exam and ECT retest... i've got an MC and if they decide to remove me from course of study... i ain't appealin... go to NS and then quickly go to Sydney to do my theatre and/or Counselling (it is under socialogy right?) and get out of S'pore... dun mistaken... i love S'pore... i really do... and i will never give up my pink(of all colors... but i like it... haha) IC and red passport... but i wanna get out and live life myself and mature... to rely on myself... and to escape from the tiring circumstances here in s'pore... and why sydney... coz trina is there... haha... and hopefully jes can come along... work visa or something... so i kinda submitted the results to God... and see where He will bring me... the observatory - this sad song In Solitude at 7:26 pm 2 shared in solitude i did not wanna update my blog today... coz i'm lazy and have a paper tmr... then my lecturer called me... her: "Tim tmr is the ECT retest... have you checked your email? it was sent last week." me: "oh is it... i did not check it... but i'm taking note... "(i just checked it... it was sent yesterday) her: "states location and time... anyway do you wanna postpone your ITP" me: "why?" her:" oh cause you still got year one modules not cleared so you can opt to postpone it.." me:"i think it is ok..." her:"but do you think you can pass? if not u will be expelled from sch then your ITP will be forced to end..." me: "oh is it" for the next 10 mins she kept repeating the same thing to me in different manner me: "okok i understand..." her: "so i will postpone your ITP so tt if you can pass u can take it next yr... if not and u appeal and gt thru u can take it next yr... and if u cannot gt thru the appeal... u no need to take ur ITP" me: "ok then..." for the next 5 mins she talked abt the same thing abt being expelled and not able to carry on ITP and stuff... her: "ok then i will see you tmr for ur ECT retest" wad could have been settled in abt 3 mins took almost 20 mins... and thanks for the information... no pressure here... i mean i know abt the expelling thing... but why do she have to keep harping on it??? i wanna pass my ECT... sigh~ but i doubt i can... nvm... if i fail i gt expelled and i go NS... then get it over and done wif and let my aunt and grandma nag at me for the next... 10 yrs (at least) Life is like a vaccum cleaner... it sucks... bright side... i'm in love with the new skin... and yes aaron... i know it looks a little gay... but hey... i'm gay.. so? Jewel - You Were Meant For Me In Solitude at 7:22 pm 1 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||