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All By Myself by Celine Dion
When I was young I never needed anyone And making love was just for fun Those days are gone Livin' alone I think of all the friends I've known When I dial the telephone Nobody's home All by myself Don't wanna be All by myself anymore Hard to be sure Sometimes I feel so insecure And loves so distant and obscure Remains the cure All by myself Don't wanna be All by myself anymore All by myself Don't wanna live All by myself anymore When I was young I never needed anyone Making love was just for fun Those days are gone All by myself Don't wanna be All by myself anymore All by myself Don't wanna live Don't wanna live By myself, by myself anymore By myself anymore All by myself Don't wanna live I never, never, never Needed anyone
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Personality cocktail From Go-Quiz.com i got 2 nicks wad... can't sleep... coz i juz can't stop coughing... since 16th June... HELP!!! jukebox[celine dion all by myself] In Solitude at 1:35 am 0 shared in solitude Saturday was fun...after service went to meet munz and gang and had fun doing horoscope analysis and chatting and chilling at fisherman village area... then went to costa sand to chill and chat till very early (sunday abt 7 then reach home...) tried to sleep... but endless calls... so fed up...decided to sit up and wait for pple to call... but nobody call... so decided to sleep... guess wad...someone... so i did not sleep... till after dinner at abt 9+... i sneak off into the room to sleep... till abt 12+ my phone ring... someone called and started to pour some woes... till abt 3... sigh... no fate to meet uncle zhou today is orientation... i thought it is orientation for the DAE guys who so unfortunately got excused from all camps etc... but look and behold... when i arrived... the whole school was there... my class is 1B24 while the younger looking pple went to A grp... so my assumption is tt 1B is those under DAE while 1A is those under JAE... but i may be wrong... wadeva it is... i kinda had fun observing how the pple ran the program... and i wanna be part of the team nmext year... maybe perfrom a short drama for Orientation... instead of hearing not so good singers and not very pro dancers (not tt i can sing or dance...) onli good thing abt the dancer (male only...sorry) is tt they are cute... or at least from where i am... after orientation... went out wif Ark and Ryan... coughing non stop thus did not really interact... but it is ok... i had fun listening to Ark and Ryan 'bitch' with each other... juz dun like the 2 gals sitting behind Ryan... kept staring at Ark (really...) and the other had a coughing competition with me... went home for dinner then watch TV and chill wif dad... finally got online... haha... nice day today... tmr 8.30 must reach SP and thursday please appear at Jurong East MRT... coz i got flag day... and i have to reach there by 8.30... sigh... and i wanna be top collector... but they assign me to Jurong East... i mean how can i be top collector??? got pple go Somerset... orchard area leh... me in JURONG!!! sigh... very sleepy due to insufficeient sleep last night.. gonna catch some sleep and meet uncle zhou... and if u r still wondering... uncle zhou is 'Zhou1 Gong1' the chinese God of Dreams... special mention:Aliferiel yeah... feeling blue... heehee... u too??? *hugz* whining time (i mean tt is wad this blog is for rite?) i really feel a little behind... and i m really tired of trying to keep up and i really dunno wad to do rite now... go into hibernation and give up everything...then after say 1 or 2 years then come back and start afresh...but i m not really tt young...not to mention looks CMI and blah blah blah... sigh... honestly... i dun wanna lose this grp of frenz i made... i lost my toher grps tt i made so long ago when i first started out...and now i m on the verge of losing the connection and touch wif this... and it is all because i do stupid things or juz do nothing...and now it is getting harder and harder to catch up... sigh... i m babbling again... but well... i feel better jukebox[speed walking in the rain] In Solitude at 10:08 pm 0 shared in solitude things are no longer the same... i have forced many pple to change their opinion of me and thus their interaction wif me... I have screwed up my life and regret is no use... i told myself... i must not screw up like how i used to...but well easier said than done... but i tried...i really did... after the emotion breakdown and reflection... i decided... i will let go... it will affect me... it will cause some regrets...but i wun let it pull me down the bottomless pit of depression... i wanna move on... pple matter a lot to me... my frenz matter a lot to me... and i am pretty much willing to do all tt is within my capability to help a fren in need... but i as much as i m loyal... i m also insensitive... how many pple can stand my insensitivity... no wonder pple gets pissed off wif me... i m not as nice as all of u think i m... but r u willing to stick wif me thru this process of self improvement? u may have to suffer my insensitivity which i m working hard to polish... but in return is my nvr-dying commitment as a fren to u... until of coz... u decide to end it or there is no way to be frenz anymore... sigh... i'm babbling...ignore me...  Your an ice dragon! Congrats! Out of all the dragons, you are most powerful but do not like to show it. A rare and special creture, you have artistic style and are great at expressing yourself. You think friends and Familly are the most important, and are a hopeless romantic. But of course, as ice goes, you can be a little cold or harsh at times. But not to worry, you always apoligize later! What elemental dragon are you? brought to you by Quizilla  You are Sloth! Lazy huh ?? You're a bit slow in getting going - and tend not to do anything unless it is absolutely necessary. You'd rather sit around, watch TV/Sleep then go out and about with friends, or take part in a sporting event. On the positive side, you tend to be quite smart, as you spend a lot of time watching the News (!!) or on the computer, Also by conserving your energy, it's right there waiting for you when it's vitally important to get going. Consider possibly moving out of the room once in a while - and perhaps once a week trade watching TV for half an hour with a walk - and you'll be back on track. However, Congratulations on being the most intelligent of the 7 deadly sins... ?? Which Of The Seven Deadly Sins Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla jukebox[sarah brightman deliver me] In Solitude at 1:03 am 0 shared in solitude am feeling better after the huge emotional ordeal... got the forgiveness i seek and emotional support from many of the frenz around me... a little update of wad had been happening... got a job at a printin company but fell sick shortly and have since quit my job... started clubbing not long ago and now kinda addicted to it... wanna visit aj clubs now to see wad things are like there... have not been posting much in the forums due to the emotion breakdown orientation is the coming monday... sigh...so many things happened in this half month... things tt pulled me down, things tt held me up... things tt crushed me... things tt lifted me up... i wanna take this chance to thank so many of you who kept reading and posting in my tagboard altho i have not been updating... for reminding me tt i still have many many frenz supporting me and so willingly share life wif me...thanks for being there in my lowest moments...  What month should you have been born in? Made by Erin @ Bored Now Paul wanted to get away from the hextic life of his and thus set off to explore the world. After a couple of weeks, he came across a large building. He went up and knocked on the door and a monk opened it. "Hello" said the monk. "Hello, I'm Paul" "Do come in Paul", the monk said "our monastery is your monastery. Anything you want, just ask, but we are about to have dinner. Won't you join us?" "I's love to" replied Paul. Dinner was a feast the likes of which Paul has never seen. The wine was beautiful and Paul hadn't had any alcohol for many months. He ate like a pig. After dinner, with all the alcohol flowing in his blood, Paul need some sleep. The monk showed him to his room and paul slept like a baby. The next morning, Paul awoke feeling very fresh. The monk came up to him and said,"If you want anything, please, just ask." "Ok, I will have to think about that." replied Paul. "Really, it would be a pleasure for us to supply you with anything your heart desires." said the monk. Paul spent weeks after weeks enjoying the food and wine, goinjg with the monks to pray and then, having plenty of time to think about it, he had a quiet word with the monk. "Can you really supply me with anything my heart desires?" asked Paul. "Anything at all, you name it and we will get it for you." replied the monk. "Ok, if you are sure about it, I wuld like to have a hair-dryer, a Macintosh, 7 candles, a sheep, some butterm a pair of old newspapers and a goat. And please, a white sheep, not a black sheep." "A white sheep?" asked the monk "No problem, but it might take a little time" A week went by with more good food and wine. But none of his requested items were present. After tt one week, the monk went up to Paul and said," Well it has been tough but we got you a a hair-dryer, a Macintosh, 7 candles, a white sheep, some butter, a pair of old newspapers and a goat. They are all in your room now." "That's great!" said Paul "I will go check them out now" An hour later Paul found the monk and said, "I am sorry to trouble you. But the hair-dryer does not have a 'cold air' option. is it possible to change it for me?" "Sure, no problem at all." replied the monk. The next day, Paul found a new hair-dryer outside his room, with a cold air option and he was ecstatic. The monks did not see much of Paul in the next few weeks but have heard some very odd noises coming form his room. After a month, Paul announced to the monks that he really ought to think about heading home. "Well, thank you for visiting us then" said the monk. " I shall missed all of you, having been so kind to me, treating me as your own, feeding me the best and supplying all that i desire. How can i ever repay you?" Paul asked the monk. "Well there is one thing" said the monk, "I would love to know why you wanted a a hair-dryer, a Macintosh, 7 candles, a white sheep, some butter, a pair of old newspapers and a goat." "Oh , that's a secret. A precious secret." said Paul. The monk looked up in anticipation. "Well, can you keep a secret?" asked Paul. "Yes I can. " said the monk excitedly. And so Paul told the monk the secret and the monk kept it a secret. And since then it was a secret, none of us would know about it and you can thus get back to your stuff. Thanks for reading. jukebox[mavis hee tie chuang] In Solitude at 5:48 pm 0 shared in solitude Will be back soon... have not really recovered from the period of depression yet... thanks to many pple who offered support in this time... but well... i dunno how to let it out... the feeling within me... the deep... painful... miserable feeling... sigh... jukebox[christina aguilera reflections] In Solitude at 1:08 am 0 shared in solitude there... i screw up again... sigh... little wonders why i have very few good frenz... nobody really can tolerate my nonsense... i never fail to scre up my frenship... offending the pple ard me... gee... just wanna say i m sorry tt i brought the joke too far... i nvr thought it would be such a big blow to you... and i seek ur forgiveness... your friendship means a lot to me... sigh... please dun ignore me... sigh... it's all my fault anyway... being in the wrong... i can't demand forgiveness... all i can do is wish tt things will cool down and forgiveness will soon come... jukebox [speed walking in the rain] In Solitude at 9:42 pm 0 shared in solitude wanna share wif u some things tt had been going on in my mind and some things tt i had learnt in this past few days... Very disappointed with the church admin... this is the 3rd camp tt the same admin team is organising and it is getting from bad to worse... sigh... this few days was spent fellowshipping with the pple from church can i had a lot of fun, getting to know them and to bond wif them... but i really missed many of my frenz on mainland singapore... i missed chatting online and catching up wif pple on msn... this new batch of frenz i had made in the forums had begin to take a place in my mind and heart... i juz hope i wun screw up my frenship wif them juz like i did with the past few batches (I had been ard longer than u pple can guess) A couple of stories heard in camp had offered me many insights to life... i will try to retell the story as authenticated as possible... During WW2 when the Allied Forces had faced many defeats...pple onli got their self-interest in their hearts... the army had this buddy system where u look out for one another... yet nobody really bothered... however there was this one man who took extra care of his buddy... his buddy was sick and could not take care of himself... that man gave his onli blanket to him while he freeze in the cold of nite... when food was limited, the man gave his food to his buddy, telling him tt he had found extra food... and as he nursed his buddy back to health, his own health got bad...by the time he had nursed his fren back to health... he fell so sick tt within days, he died... his story begin to spread thru out the camp and everyone finally understood... to put others first and support each other... and wif this new revelation... they motivated each other and survived the harsh condition, coping wif it better than when they were self-centred... lessons learnt: 1) shared burden is halved burden 2) when u give up ur normal lifestyle for the good of others, you will challenge others to do the same... 2 more stories... to be told over the span of the next 2 entries... hope it will also give u some insights... jukebox[mayday chun zhen] In Solitude at 2:45 am 0 shared in solitude well guess wad... i m back from Johor Bahru, Malaysia... this 3 days had been fulfilling and fun... had great fun and learnt a lot abt being a loving person... this 3 days in JB has been fruitful... however... i missed u guys a lot in JB... i was thinking everynite wad i would type so as to really tell u wad i went thru and how much i missed all of u... 3rd of June i did not sleep at all coz i was afraid i would oversleep... thanks to the always sacrificial Linus who willing stayed up till 4+am to keep me company... i owe u 2 now... 4th of June set off for JB... even though the money we paid is the same as the others... my grp have to travel into JB ourselves... adminstration srew up ths insufficient coaches to bring all 2200 pple in...some drove, some took cab etc... reached the hotel and had a wonderful session there... however the most stupid occur... due to the same screwed up administration... while evryone we know got twin sharing... my grp (bear in mind we pay equal amt) have to squeeze 3 pple in a twin sharing room... causing a lot of us to sleep on sofa for 2 nites... there was even pple who had a room for themselves...but we have to bear wif insufficient rooms... very pissed off tt i wrote in the camp comments to ask them to look into tt matter...did not sleep at nite... partly due to space constrain... i decided to let my bed to someone else... moreover one of them had breathing difficulty and being a first aider (wif wadeva knowledge i had left tt is) i tried to help him and his condition was keep checked... but the most important reason why i did not sleep is coz we went for supper... there was very nice food at cheap price and juz indulge in food till abt 2+ (abt 3hrs)... went back to my room slept for an hour plus... which means for the past 2 days i slept 1hr plus... 5th June was ok... but coz did not sleep well end up dozing off during teachings but tried to stay awake... spent a lot of money on sweets to stay awake... we had a grand banquet in the evening but the food was not really tt nice... we had more fun laming and crapping at the dinner table, taking pictures and stuff... i even played wif the food... but it was fun... tt nite we all did not sleep coz we played cards, board game, WWE or juz chat the nite away... meaning 3 nites i onli slept 1+ hrs... 6th June after the closing and the finally lunch in the hotel... we went shopping...but i onli bought a ring and 2 shirts due to a little irresponsible episode of somebody who was suppose to gueard the bags but decided to disappear...board the buss back to Kranji MRT at 3.30... checkpt got a few funny things... malaysia checkpt...the vehicles were trying to get out of the jam tt it kept on horning...until SBS 170 the horn off pitch... very funny... while travelling to singapore immigration... the bus travelled in the opposite direction lane so tt it can overtake the cars infront...brave... then in singapore checkpt some of us took a little longer to get out of the immigration so we started jokin abt some dope in their bags or porn vcds and they got caught... lame all the way till kranji and alighted...time then was abt 6.30... went to PS for lunch wif 2 others and lame and chat till abt 10 when we left for home...reach home liao shower and collaspe...zzzzzzzz woke up on the 7th of July at abt 7+pm then after tv and stuff went online for a short while...then my fren called...got stranded in pasir ris...so decided to switch off comp and invite him over my place and entertain him till abt 5am went to sleep... this morning woke up at 7+ coz he refuse to let me sleep... till abt 8 i see him to the door... douggy called wanna meet at abt 12.30... so i decided to read a book tt i have not read before to kill time till designated time...BUT... i doze off (the story kinda boring...) and when i woke up "oh sh~it (x3)" then i msg douggy tellin him i will be very late... he waited nvrtheless and we had a great time catchin up till abt 7... met Ryan and gang for Harry Potter... nice movie...really... i enjoyed it and decided to find some ways to catch the previous 2 installments... nice meeting ryan and interacting him for the first time... of coz some new pple and some old pple... nice catching up with/meeting you pple... u had been a fun grp to be wif... got home at 12 juz to see my sis injured...apparently she decided to kneel on the glass table to do something and she being not so slim caused the glass to shatter under her and ended up in CGH... minor cuts no need stiching... tt should teach her a lesson... finally got online and catch up wif a few frenz on msn... so this was the summarised outlook of my few days missing in action... jukebox[liang ge nu sheng tian shi] In Solitude at 1:45 am 0 shared in solitude it is over... my evaluation period is over... well a new quarter has begun... and i will grow in this new quarter... will be in JB for the next 2 days... be back on sunday and will then update my blog... whoever is reading it (thanks anyway... u r the few kind souls who would actually bother abt how i m) i will be back on 6th June... see you guys online then... i have not pack my stuff yet...sigh... this sucks... done a few quiz...  Your and Innocent Unicorn! Innocent Unicorns are very pure and good. They are the rarest of types and sadly, are being hunted. Thats because an Innocent Unicorn horn once removed from the head, is worth alot of money, and if left in holy water for a day, will turn into diamond. Young Innocent Unicorns always stay close to their mothers, and always will stand by there side even when they grow. Innocent Unicorns are said to be the friends of angels and can dance on moonbeams. Innocent unicorns represnt virginty, goodness, pureness, and love. They always value friendship, and familly, and are facinated by humans. Innocent unicorns are shy, but if friends for someone, its a friend to the end. What kind of Unicorn are you? (With beautiful pictures) brought to you by Quizilla  You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla  cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be close to your special someone and feel warm, comfortable, and needed What Sign of Affection Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  Your: Happy eyes! Your cheerfull, bright and always want to try something new. Your inquisitive and quite lovable. You have many friends and will succseed in life. What type of eyes do you have? brought to you by Quizilla  avoidant Which Personality Disorder Do You Have? brought to you by Quizilla  You are the Aqua Marine Mermaid. You are pure and brave. Strong and True. Your best freind is your seahorse, your steed. You have fought many battles in your own life and in the sea. No matter what challenge you overcome it. Congratulations there are very few of you. Would you rate my quiz for I am brave too? What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics) brought to you by Quizilla i like the pic  You're Air!! Air signs include; Gemini, Libra and Aquarius. Air can symbolise Healing, peace and patience. Don't worry if your star sign is not one of the above, it just means your personailty is attracted to this sign. Which element are you??? brought to you by Quizilla elv In Solitude at 1:27 am 0 shared in solitude today marks the last day of my 5 days evaluation for the 2nd quarter 2004... so today would be more intense thinking... one of the things i have considered is to cut the evaluation process to abt 1-3 days... and from every 3 mths to every half yr... but decisions would be left till my year end evaluation and resolution to be made... gee wad a life i m living... here r 8 things out of the list i have evaluated: 1. i had been very irritating... had been bugging the life out of my frenz... 2. i had been insensitive to the people around me... 3. i had been spending a lot... 4. i had not been diligent in keep promises and appointments 5. i had been too demanding 6. i had been a little hypocritical and scheming... of coz there r good things... (r there? i sure hope so...) 7. family ties had improved by a little...but still improved 8. i had been more encouraging in my speech and of coz... 'dang1 ju2 ze3 mi2, pang2 guan1 ze3 qing1' (idea: the outsiders sees a situation more clearly then an insider)...frenz evaluation(3 out of list): 1. i had been irresponsible to many things i said 2. i had been too 'loose' (u know wad i mean... if not...too bad)in my daily conversation... 3. i had been supportive and was (almost) always there for them... of coz the list goes on... but it is for my own evaluation... not so comfy in making it a public entry... so will write it in the book...evaluation, changes and all... yup... today was a fun day...altho unlucky... played mahjong at my frenz house...but the guys came late..so we started late... but in the meantime... i got the song up... sarah brightman deliver me... so now u guys would know how the song goes... so... back to mahjong... played mahjong till abt 10 today... and i lost $45 all together... thank God not real money... or else must sell handphone... must brush u my skills... gonna play wif kor and his frenz this month...and this time...real money involve... either i improve or i start saving money... made some minor changes to my blog... i m afraid tt the creepy laughter might come again... jukebox[utada hikaru first love] In Solitude at 1:55 am 0 shared in solitude cool day yesterday... coz i went to sentosa... siloso beach at abt 2 wif me frenz and played beach games... halfway got a grp of guys (cute... esp one name stanley) join us for volleyball... till abt 5+ went to meet my fren bro for his birthday... yesterday was indeed a fun day... a few funny things: -got 2 gals in my grp of frenz...they play soccer wif us... when they wanna kick the ball and we tackle them they will always ask us to wait... -_-''' where got wait one... -a guy wearing white underwear playing guitar...very funny... the looks of it... but when he went down into the water...it is no longer funny... *sinister laughter* -buried a fren while he is standng... till his knee level... took 1 whole hr to do it...tiring but fun... ok fine... it is not tt funny...but it was fun... wanna go down there soon... who wanna join in? got home real late... after teochew porridge supper... ally and her stead pick me up at abt 3 plus... fort road got accident... very serious... got home at abt 3.20... went to bed at 3.40... but at abt 3.43 something sinister happened... a very ghostly laughter was heard right beside my ear... "heeheehee heehee" a guy's voice... freak out lor... wah liew... after askin him to get lost... i mean go away... i slowly drifted off to sleep... morning wake up at 11 to wait for Huili's call to go for the SPI thingy... but till now still have not call me... nvm dun go liao lor... forget it... jukebox[sarah brightman deliver me] In Solitude at 3:52 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||||||||