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Here i am... in school now... just reached actually... but well look at the time... 11.10am... and my test starts at 10am ends at 11.45am... i go in now i only got abt 35 mins to do the paper... tt is IF they let me in... u see the grace period for latecomers is 15 min... so i missed the time... wadeva... i m bound to fail this module anyway... so now gonna update and hang ard in the net before heading out to eat and then head home to clean up the living room and study for my Law on wednesday... Ms E. Koh is going to hate me for this... sigh...
nothing much is happening latey... just tt ocassionally i do wanna get hitched... on the phone last nite wif Ally... talked to her abt a fren who is getting married... to think of it... everytime i call her after i know of tt news...i m talking abt the wedding... i must get out of it and talk abt something else... ronald is worrying me... he is not sleeping early and he dun sound tt happy whenever i talk to him online... that is if he reads my msg and reply (and vice versa)... feeling so bored now... sigh~ In Solitude at 11:10 am 0 shared in solitude My Elvish name is Orophin Calafalas http://www.chriswetherell.com/elf/ My Hobbit name is Sancho Boffin of Needlehole source: http://www.chriswetherell.com/hobbit/ My name is the 27th most common name... source:http://www.namestatistics.com/ interesting rite? haha ok... well wanna update after the outing... but when i came back... my bro using comp... when i went to sleep he still using... when i woke up he still using... when i left house he still using... when i came bac he still using... till today when i woke up then i gotta use... but forgot all abt the updating till now... had an outing on friday... meeting the SP thread pple... had a lot of fun meeting them and chatting wif them... haha... well nth much to say abt the outing coz well... it was fun and i dunno how to describe it... haha... feeling better lately... really... but worried for the pple ard me... like Ronald... jukebox[Phantom of the Opera OST-All I Ask of You] In Solitude at 9:56 pm 0 shared in solitude I have straighten out my thinking... i decided that i need not get attached... was out with Leong yesterday and had fun toking to him and he made me realise... being attached is an addition to the best fren status... but wad is most important tt the new status is suppose to bring in closeness of the frenship... wondered why it took me soo long... dun wna my stead to worry and stuff... while in the past b4 the stead status i share problems... (I M NOT ATTACHED NOW!!! just wanna set some records str8) so if i ever would to get attached... it is a bonus... but if i dun.. well the good frenz ard me pretty much covered my loneliness... there are time tt i will feel lonely sleeping alone... and haveing no one to hug and kiss and blah~ but at least i know... a lot of frenz will be by my side to keep me company and put a smile on my face... just finished a test... no confidence... tmr gt another test... no confidence... bleah~ but m excited over tmr's outing... SPians... let's meet up and have fun... tmr also gyming wif Axton... so long no gym liao... wanna lose weight and get healthy... Jasmine and Jerry infront now studying BMA... envious of their attachment status... but i m ok now... my special him will appear one day... In Solitude at 3:13 pm 0 shared in solitude if i m not wrong... the guy sitting beside me is my senior... and the guy to my left is taking peeks at my computer... i m in school now... to think of it... i m in sch only once a week... it wun continue that way... after the term break i will be here everyday... or at least i will try my best... was on my bed last night when the show "the land before time" came into my mind... i miss tt show... i love it so much and it has been a long time since i last watched that show... but tt was beside the point... i feel so lonely... i was hugging my pillow thinking if i would ever find someone special to me... pple ard me are getting attached or finding a soulmate and i dun even have one tt i like... i mean personally and i know tt things might work out... (Shut up! pple who just came in... u r spoiling my mood for mel entries...) but well one thing's for sure... i m getting comfort from my frenz... (u see wad they did to my mood) and i really thank all of them who is always there to support me... nothing much is happening... gonna get a hair cut, got some new shirts and a new pair of shoes... and real excited for new year... In Solitude at 1:34 pm 0 shared in solitude nobody is listening to him... he is damn boring... he is just teaching from the notes and telling his life story... his trip in tokyo... bleah... well was a litle suicidal (not tt i really m... just very down...) but now i m feeling much better... thanks to ronald, ally and alif for being there for me all these while to help me... aaron just contacted me... things are no longer the same... sigh... i miss the good old days... well nothing much lately... just spending time at home (i have not been going to sch until today...) bleah... having IT lessons now... 2 cute guys sitting behind me.. heehee jukebox[nth...lecturer babbling] In Solitude at 3:47 pm 0 shared in solitude
I'm more into drama... hmmm... haha
I Act 20... i m 20... i wanna be younger though...
well Virgo is an Earth sign afterall...
very true... very very true
jukebox[cranberries dreams] In Solitude at 1:44 am 0 shared in solitude again... and again... was chatting online just now and yet another ignores me after seeing my pic... i already gave up hope... i lost count on those who ignores me after seeing my pic... i lost count on those who brush me off wf "not my type" and decides to keep quiet... i lost count on the times when i thought i can make a new fren but hopes got dash... i give up... i really do... i m screwing my life up... how many frenz do i have? those who really know me... a few? not even a handful... ajs? a couple? i dunno... i tried... i really did... hard... tried to change my looks... change my life... change the way i dress... but... how many times do i get rejected? who actually is willing to go beyond the surface... i surrender fate... i always thought i can make myself better... can get frenz and someone to like me... but how many? i can't seem to make new frenz, pple are ignoring me and refusing to go deeper.... i always piss off who are frenz... then they dun really tok anymore... white flag... i m wrong... at least till now... no one within the circle are willing to put down first impression and try to get to kow u... no one is willing to go beyond my surface... i m tired... it is always me giving and outputting... who do i have to be by my side? i m beginning to hate myself... nobody really loves me anyway... Another day has past Another day alone Another day without someone Just me, silently alone Everyday I hoped Everyday I wait Everyday, a brand new day With hopes anew, I’ll wait Someone out there I longed Someone out there for me Someone out there to make today A day just for me i guess tt person will never come... Sitting alone in this lonely night Pondering about all the things went by Giving up hope, I let a sigh Knowing that i have lost the battle Fate! You win! I should know by now Man can never beat your power I resign myself nothing I can do Except sitting down here alone in the dark never mind... i can't seem to write anything decent lately... jukebox[kyo's blog music] In Solitude at 1:50 am 0 shared in solitude it has been a long time since i last posted... have been screwing up myself... not really been in school... coz i am sick.... if u all seen my msn nick... u know how bad things are... alot of sad things lately... my fren just broke up and now she is sucidial... i feel down coz i spent new year's day alone... and many many stuff... but i m getting better... cheer up a lot already... thanks alif, ally and my didi for all the love they have been showering on me... went to sch yesterday and my class was... wow... u r finally here... long time no see... and i a=was like... ya... but i m here now... after tt i went to st pat's to visit teachers and fish out the identity of a few patricians... haha... went there and first guy i saw was Damien Chew... did not tok much and hen saw brandon lee... haha... fun tokin and catching up... after which... met brother nick, mr gill, mr yong, mr tan, ms collars and ms siva... then decided to stay for the camp... heard from the students (alexstine and terrence actually) abt the sighting... i knew it... thursday camp in st pat's sure will get such stuff... and somemore on the site where it is most unclean... but well... had fun there seeing the students in orientation... and seeing the students which i saw coming in as a sec 4 peer leader become seniors who are helping out... i feel so old... to think of it... it was 8 years ago tt i step into st pat's... then ever since 2000 i have been involve in orientation... all except this year... just visited and did nothing... and just recollect... a lot of fond memories.... i miss my days... and suddenly this thought came into my mind... i wan someone from st pat's... haha... i mean getting attached to someone from my own sch... which i think is impossible... coz well... i dun really attract pple... bleah... still wondering who the other 3 person in the forum is... whoever they are... hope they had fun in st pat's too... just like i did... potest qui vult... will always remember tt... i should not be back for anymore oreintation... ms siva is no longer around.... she is the reason why i m going back each year to help out... just watch formula 17... a really nice show... just some patr in canto... who wanna watch wif me again??? wonder when will i find a someone myself... i have offically set aside this month as remembering the good old days month... hahaha... more post on the good old past of mine... maybe also sad post.. and diary excerpts... till then... heehee... jukebox[speed be my love] In Solitude at 6:50 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||||||||||||
