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The last day of the month... and coming to an end the first sem of this year... beginning to feel the toil on me...
1 presentation due tommrrow 3 reports due next thursday 2 presentations due next thursday 1 presentation due next friday 1 report due monday after next 1 law assignment tt i had not touched yet (asap) 5 drawing tutorial by wednesday after next total 14 assignments due b4 end of term test... to add on to the stress... my test is starting in 30 min time and i had not started my revision... not at all... In Solitude at 4:08 pm 0 shared in solitude feel so dislocated from the pple ard me... been a long time since i last tag them or even sms or call them... sigh... this kinda suck... things are rather slow and smooth lately... and little pple havemy new number mainly bcoz i m lazy to sms u peeps... patience is a virtue so pls wait patiently for my number... no i m not avoiding u... juz have to wait... very tired lately too... been sleeping alot but still feel very tired... also very hingry... i juz cannot stop eating... juz had my lunch but i m still hungry.. sigh... wanna diet and save money but dun think i can do it now... still got lesson later... thursday's IDEA push up to today... got this weird feeling i will be doing the business proposal myself while the rest of the team mates will be doing the poster... wadeva... i juz have to do wad i have to do... still got RWP, OC, CADD projects to do and all kinda due by first week of next month (which is 2 weeks time) have to start staying abck ins chool and rush all my projects liao... kinda sian... got this from a fren: ANACONDA SURVIVAL GUIDE 1.If you are attacked by an anaconda, do not run. The snake is faster than you are. 2.Lie flat on the ground. Put your arm tight against ur sides, legs tight together. 3.Tuck in your chin. 4.The snake will come and begin to nudge and climb over your body. 5.Do not panic. 6.After the snake has examined you, it will begin to swallow you from the feet in, always from the feet in. Permit the snake to swallow your feet and ankles. Do not panic. 7.The snake will now begin to suck your legs into its body. You must lie perfectly still. This will take a long time. Do not panic. 8.When the snake reaches your kness, slowly and with as little movements as possible reach down and take out your knife and very gently slide it between the edge of the snake's mouth and your legs. Then suddenly rip upwards severing the snake's head. 9.Be sure to have your knife with you. 10.Be sure your knife is sharp. Angst: You spend all your time worrying about things; and a lot of what you worry about you have no control over. It's hard for you to accept that some things are unchangeable and you often read too deeply into situations. You crave assurance that everything will be okay. What emotional state are you? brought to you by Quizilla  Michael. You're most like the ArchAngel of Defense. You like to hit things, and you like naked people, preferably cute naked people. A real down-to-earth angel who likes frogs and is easily distracted by bright, shiny things. Which ArchAngel are you most like? brought to you by Quizilla  You're like a fairy. Fairies were the little pixies that usually lived in the forest with wings like butterflies and perfect little faces. they had brown or blonde hair and pale skin with freckles. They were entergetic, joyful, playful, very smart, and peaceful. Fairies are deffinately the most famous of all fantasy creatures. (If you cannot see the picture, go to my userpage and look near the bottom. There should be the picture and description for all the results) What Mystical Creature Are You? (Pictures) brought to you by Quizilla more next time which will be soon... coz i will be stuck in the sch comp lab on a regular basis... sigh... life sucks... and if anyone knows wad to do with all the bugs... pls tell me... it is getting on everybody's nerves... mine included... jukebox[(in my mind) yuan wei jue xing dreams] In Solitude at 1:17 pm 0 shared in solitude I Am 
Which tarot card are you? did this while doing my research on my OC presentation... kinda interesting... i like the hermit card though... so carrying on from where i left u peeps... tuesday... went for my OC test at the Architectural side... then kinda got into a commenting session for their presentation... got a few cute guy there... out of which there is 1 i have been seeing abt 4 times this week... did not go for the TC stuff... forgot to tell them i not going... went to meet him instead... then walk around and eat dinner... after tt wanna watch a movie... dunno which show to watch... but someone GAVE us a pair of free tickets to Anaconda... cool rite??? watch it then hang around before going home... yesterday got fever... did not go for lessons... kinda sick the whole day... but went out for a short while to get my hp number done... i will start sms-ing u peeps soon... most prob thru msn till 1st October when the rest i will sms... if u wan it... come find me thru any means possible ok? today had my RWP test... kinda tough and i no time coz i was late... took a cab to school spending all my money... sigh... then had my lessons till 5... my class got a guy... he was sleeping in class but my lecturer dun care... then the lesson end he still sleeping... then my lecturer got the whole class to leave while he is still sleeping... then she sent someone intot he room to wake him up... the whole class juz cannot stop laughin... so funny... then came to comp lab and did my research for OC presentation lor... kinda sian... haha... thank goodness HE is by my side... reading newspaper... haha... jukebox[nothing... so sian] In Solitude at 6:39 pm 0 shared in solitude building sci ended earlier and now at lab slackin and updating... it is raining very heavily outside and the guys in the lab r noisy... my phone has been declared dead on 21st September 2004 0900hrs (ard there lah) and i m now phoneless... my last message is a msg from a fren who sent me her mid autumn fest greetings... the presentation on the 16th was fine... she was ok to me... and she told me she wanna give me a second chance for my design and drawing... i turn up for ALL her lessons and pass up all my drawings by end of the term before the term test period and she will mark me... with a small penalty but nonetheless she will mark me... which means i might be able to pass that module... and i decided... ok i will... and then not see her hopefully... heehee... things got a little better after the 16th... was low... but slowly build up... and then now... feelin much better... at least now if got anything... i should be able to turn to him... and i would wan this to work out well... just tt he seem a little possessive... i fear he might start demanding me to meet him and stuff... i dun like tt... the bunch of guys in the lab... got 3 rather cute ones... haha... ooooooooooooooo.... i miss Isaac... wonder how he is... i miss him too... heehee... jukebox[in my mind: speed walking in the rain] In Solitude at 11:53 am 0 shared in solitude it is official... my handphone number will be gone as on 20th September... if u r looking for me... i'm sorry... i wun have any number till earliest next month... coz i still owe the f-ing M1 about $300... sigh... life still suck... and it will be even suckier when i m disconnected from the world... but it might be good... less irritation to the world... anyone interested in being bugged by me can still find me on MSN or ICQ... that is if i get a chance to go online at home... with my brother dominating the computer and me being too lazy to demand the usage... i guess i can pretty much forget it... if not... then just wait for me... will appear hopefully soon enough so tt memories of my existance will not vanish... once i get my new number... i will SMS u guys... a interesting question i have for myself... which is actually bothering me a little... 2 didi... both got attached... and i dun know about it till quite late... why? but then again... who m i? i'm not important... they no need to tell me anything... sheesh... wadeva... sigh... sigh... really no mood now... got a presentation later... not prepared for it... my report project is gonna be due and i m only 1/3 done... exams in 6 weeks, term test in 5... and i have not started my preparation work... my drawing and design teacher dun really like me... and she is the lecturer of the module which i have to do the presentation later... and when u think life is at its worst state... things never get better but just carry on downhill... i cannot imagine wad my life would be like after the presentation... i might be so depress tt i cry in class... gee... wadeva... i dun really care anymore... jukebox[chattering, typing, clicking...] In Solitude at 1:30 pm 0 shared in solitude wad's the freaking prob wif my blog... bugs and stuff... can't i just update it wifout to worry abt the bugs... gonna find a new template... a simple childish one if i have to... got my term test results back... apart from ECT which i m absent... i m rather pleased with the others... Building Sci: 81% Comp Aided Drawing: 97% Law of Contract: 71% but it is over... celebrations after the semestral exams.. if i produce the same results for it... just finished a stupid AIDS talk by the school... the whole Design Sch Year 1s have to go... really stupid... she shpw a video and talk talk talk... then she ask if we gt any question... the whole auditorium say no then all left without anything... kinda funny... sian... now have to do a stupid report writing project... update soon... jukebox[keyboard typing] In Solitude at 5:35 pm 0 shared in solitude carry on form yesterday's post... yesterday ended real bad too... my neighbour was swearing and cursing at my grams and my grams gt soooo angry tt she almost gt an attack... my sister called the police and the police came, threatened wif a $500 bond and a possibility of the flat being confiscated if this conflict gets out of hand... there I bearing wif her nonsense and then she goes to the police, town council and mediation centre and make it look as if we are at fault...wadeva... tmr gonna go to the town council and complain then go to the mediation to complain and arrange a date wif them for mediation wif her and dad... Today was ok... met someone and went TPY wif him... he is a nice guy... juz a little mel and negetive... but... overall he is nice... then I went home... then went to see my other grams and after a long talk... it is decided tt my line will be cut off by end of this mth... sigh... wadeva... real bad mood now... no mood for anything... dun even feel sleepy... Rip this out of a mail I was reading... something positive so tt my depressing and sucky life wun bore u too much... Lovely Rose at 87 The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being. She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I'm eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?" I laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!" and she gave me a giant squeeze. "Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked. She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get married, and have a couple of kids..." "No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age. "I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm getting one!" she told me. After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me. Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up. At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor. Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, "I'm sorry I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know." As we laughed she cleared her throat and began, "We do not stop playing because we are >>old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success. You have to laugh and find humor every day. You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it! There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight. Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets. The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets." She concluded her speech by courageously singing "The Rose." She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives. At the year's end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago. One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can possibly be. REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL. We make a Living by what we get, We make a Life by what we give. God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. "Good friends are like stars. You don't always see them, but you know they are always there." jukebox[ah sang the rose(incomplete)] In Solitude at 1:26 am 0 shared in solitude Ripped this off Koon's blog... Virgo<23> • Symbol : The Virgin • Ruling House : Sixth House • Ruling Planet : Mercury • Gemstone : Emerald • Element : Earth • Representative Tarot: Knight of Pentacles, The Hermit • Most compatible with : Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn • Can be good with : Scorpio, Cancer, Pisces • A 50-50 chance with : Aries, Sagittarius, Leo • Doubtful with : Gemini, Aquarius, Libra Virgo Personality Practical, cool-headed and thoroughly meticulous -- that's what you are in a nutshell. You are not unnecessarily swayed by emotions and even if sentiments were running high, you can keep a cool head to weigh your approach. Often quiet and reserved, you try to stick to your world, keeping it as tidy and perfect as you can. Nevertheless, you are bustling with energy and always have plenty to do. You are not afraid of taking on challenges and prove your mettle with hard work and a quiet determination. Your quest for perfection and your inability to ignore even the smallest of faults generally proves good for you. You are Nelson's Horatio, quite content not to be in charge, but there to make sure everything runs smoothly and is done as required. You believe in fair play and rarely manipulate. Violent confrontations are not your cup of tea and indeed render you quite ineffective in your work. Honest and forthright, you do not like hypocrites and cannot hide your displeasure at sycophants. Although you are not short-tempered and in fact are slow to get angry, when you do have arguments you try to put up a stiff resistance to anyone opposing you. You tend to make bitter enemies, and like an elephant you remember events that happened a long time ago. You love to travel and generally this proves beneficial for you am now in school coz the teacher cannot open my floppy... wtf... i travelled all the way to school juz to get the disk done for her... so sian... so now i m here updating my blog again... sigh... i saw him again... the one who i will always miss... he was on his way back and i, to the bus stop... we did exchange glances but tt's abt it... nth more... kinda sad tt we had become like tt... it is afterall my fault so i dun blame anyone... it is all my fault tt the relastionship turned sour... i deserve it... after seeing him... I end up thinking and thinking the whole journey to school... and well I think it is better for me to have no one by my side... or else I may end up hurting all of them... almost cried on the bus... but I didn’t... damn slack now man... nth to do... nobody to go out wif... i m considering to go back to TP and take a stroll but... none of the old tut mates are ard... they all having their attachment... so i guess i can forget it... need to see a doctor... me teeth is aching gonna see a dentist... jukebox[the sound of keyboard in the comp lab] In Solitude at 1:17 pm 0 shared in solitude 20 Questions to being a Better Person Your score as a human being is 87.75. You are close to ideal. So close, and yet so far. Amusing, really, to watch someone squirm so close to the vaunted ranks of perfection and still remain so very, very ordinary. It is all one can do to keep one's ingratiating smile from polluting one's perfect face. Actually, one recommends you take the quiz again and lie a little. ~*~ 20 Questions to a Better Relationship eXpressive: 7/10 Practical: 3/10 Physical: 1/10 Giver: 10/10 You are a XSIG--Expressive Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Teddy Bear. Hee! I just want to give you a big squeeze. You are tender, honest, generous and fair. You are an excellent kisser and a sensitive, communicative lover, and you know it. You would never intentionally hurt someone's feelings or overstep his/her boundaries. You have beautiful eyes. Most people take your laid-back attitude, blazing wit and subtle sexiness and stick you in "friend." But some see your extreme hotness for what it is and latch on. This means you have a few members of your target sex in the bank at all times -- I call this "money in the sex bank" -- but you're too sensitive and thoughtful to exploit them. More than once. You are so rational and deliberate in an argument that it can frustrate and exhaust your partner. Your fights can take forever, but your press on with them until they are completely resolved and both you and your partner are satisfied. If your partner is weak of will, s/he may just give in -- be wary of this! An emotional or passive-aggressive outburst later will hurt and horrify you. It is *critically important* that you are able to respect your partner. The moment you lose respect for him/her, you lose everything. When you make friends, you make them for life -- you can go without speaking to a friend for years and pick up right where you left off. You are completely faithful, both physically and emotionally. You are the second best (to XPIG) parent of any type. If you are male, you have a huge shlong. Just saying. ~*~ 20 Questions to a Better Personality Wackiness: 62/100 Rationality: 70/100 Constructiveness: 62/100 Leadership: 50/100 You are a WRCF--Wacky Rational Constructive Follower. This makes you a Paul Begala. You are unflappable and largely unconcerned with others' reactions to you. You were not particularly interested in the results of this test, and probably took it only as a result of someone else asking you to. You have a biting wit and intense powers of observation. No detail is lost on you, and your friends know it--relying on you to have the facts when others express only opinions. You are even-tempered, friendly, and educated. Foolish strangers may mistake your mildness for weakness--they will be surprised. You entire approach to life is enviable. You will raise good kids. ~*~ http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp jukebox[speed walking in the rain] In Solitude at 5:55 pm 0 shared in solitude After a long weekend with my birthday being part of ... I am here...feeling a little down again... The 19 years of my life has been pretty much screwed up... and now... honestly... I dun care how pple think of me anymore... I know my past is not exactly a clean one... but so? I really am trying to change... why is it that pple dun really bother abt this... but then again... I dun care anymore... I know tt I was a very loose guy and had many erotic experiences and encounters but tt was in the past... can't pple see tt I m trying to change... can't they give me another chance... wadeva happens to opportunities to pple who wanna change... why can't they trust tt i have the capability to love? This 19th birthday suck... it is once in a lifetime... but it suck... no one was by my side during this birthday... no frenz, no family... nobody... am I really so detestable? But maybe I deserve it... after all I ain't a good guy... and I ain't a good fren... the times when frenz show their concern and their warmth, I did not appreciate it... they are always there for me... but me? I was never there for them... I even make stupid and insensitive jokes... there are sooo many regrets in my life... m I actually worthy of frenz? I dun think so... I pretty much deserve to die in loneliness... in my own solitude... This mask... too painful to put on... yet I dun wan it off... I hate myself... Jukebox[melissa manchester don't cry out loud] In Solitude at 3:26 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||