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sometimes, behind the smiles and laughters, is a soul that had never stopped crying... the more i try... the harder it is for me... should i just give up? should i carry on? Spend all your time waiting for that second chance For the break that will make it okay There's always some reason to feel not good enough And it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction or a beautiful release Memories seep from my veins Let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight In the arms of the Angel far away from here From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn There's vultures and thieves at your back The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies That you make up for all that you lack It don't make no difference, escaping one last time It's easier to believe In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness That brings me to my knees In the arms of the Angel far away from here From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie In the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here. Dreams, the only escape from this cruel world... where your wishes and fantasies come true... Sarah McLachlan - Angel In Solitude at 1:23 am 0 shared in solitude 如果你不再出现 我的世界 还有什么可贵 可惜不够时间 让我们试验 什么叫永远 想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎 偏偏还会关切 你最后属于谁 我的天空今天有点灰 我的心是个落叶的季节 我不知道如何度过今夜 所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭 如果你从没出现 我会不会 觉得快乐一些 可惜残忍时间 总要把诺言一点点摧毁 想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎 偏偏还会关切 你最后属于谁 我的天空今天有点灰 我的心是个落叶的季节 我不知道如何度过今夜 所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭 *rewind to the chalet during chinese new year* downtown east new year deco gt predictions on the coming year for the 12 zodiac animals in the chinese calender... on mine it reads: not suitable to find love, will get hurt badly... *fast forward to today* abt 1 month had passed and i had been disappointed many times i lost count... call it spooky... but i guess i'll heed the advice... just tt after tis year... i may no longer find the courage and strength to love again... in moments like tis... my mind is flooded... I don't know if I could have any hope for the future. I was born alone. I'll go on living alone. S.H.E - 天灰 In Solitude at 2:10 am 0 shared in solitude bad bad time lately... sigh... lotsa things happened and i dunno where to begin... anyways... here's wad happened as much as i can remember... i've done my medical checkup... i'm PES A L1... so i guess i'm ready to do anything for the government... sian... stupid and healthy... onli one place: frontline... wad else? i got robbed... ok nt really... i left my wallet on the counter of my store one day and a indian lady walked into the store... i was busy with some customers then and when she walked out... she was holding onto one of the books containing confidential information of the customers... i stopped her and took the book back and let her go... abt 3 hrs later i found out my wallet was opened and i lost $190, right after getting my pay... if only i collect it later... sigh~ ummm... some more? i bought the hua yang shao nian shao nu (i dunno the jap title) and watched it liao... so sweet... so nice... so... so... so... *melt* wu zhun is so nice... his character is sooooooooo awww~ tall, handsome, cute (yes he is both)... strong and soft in character... relying on ella's character while protecing her... wad else can someone ask for... hmmm... good sex... haha but seriously... while watching the show.. i was like... awww... awww... awww... awww... i wan someone like tt... i wan a guy like tt... so sweet... so romantic... haha... oh ya... updates... i'm quitting my job... i already decided to step down from my post with effects from 5th April... then see when is enlistment and then quit... wahahhaha... so anyone wanna employ me.... and lately... i have no connection to the internet... sigh~ sian~ so many things i wanna do online but no internet... and i have no life!!! pple... ask me out~ please help me out of this boring life... 93.3FM In Solitude at 4:34 pm 0 shared in solitude 如果重来一遍 我们能走多远 时间不断重复着思念 距离台北纽约 我们分隔两边 划分我们之间的界线 我恨我当初没把你留下 我不该以为自己很伟大 听着你说对于未来的梦想 你说想去闯 我不该阻挡 你过的好吗 有比我好吗 是否还像从前的任性模样 还习惯一个人住吗 独立让人成长我相信 你有双坚强的翅膀 你过的好吗 还会想我(爱)吗 听说你身边多了个爱你的他 他应该对你很好吧 代替我的肩膀保护你 快乐的飞翔(你过的好吗) 如果重来一遍 我们能走多远 if nothing happened... we would have celebrated our 1st year together... and it was today tt i realised... i'm ok now... i no longer feel moody when i think of him... and although there is still a stinging feeling within... i guess it is all the same with all the other ex tt i have... spent the whole morning (night of 9th March to morning of 10th March) with Douggy just talking... about trust, pride, child-likeness, childishness, army, spirits, life, personality, quitting, plans and tarot... and it suddenly dawn upon us... it has been a long time since we last did tt... (it was before he went into army) how has life ate up so much moments tt we could have shared... his NS and my work... and i begin to think of my other frenz... all who matter to me... when was the last time we sat down and really talked? it was great spending all tt time wif him... it made me realised how far we have left the past behind... to the extend tt i'm the verge of losing precious precious things... memories... anyways... today was kinda a sad day... a grp came in to celebrate a b'day... and after everything... the mum asked his child (the birthday boy) to come to us and said... "come... say thank you to uncle timothy" uncle?! call tt retribution... sorry to those whom i laughed at when they first turn 21... sorry for calling u uncle... ayumi - a song for xx In Solitude at 2:25 am 0 shared in solitude i guess i will never find hope in the very place where u should feel safe and hopeful... i guess home will never be wad it should be to me... think... if i dread coming home... wad has it become... adding everything... i feel so vulnerable now... i feel so... afraid... so unwanted... mum... is home too much to ask for? mum... i'm sorry... mum... i miss you... mum... help me stop crying please... mum... come back please... mum... mum... In Solitude at 3:19 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||