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today was a break thru... i... went... to... SCHOOL!!! after so many days of not turning up (if today no go... tt would be 1 week) Introduction to Organisational Behaviour was good... role played and found an actress for my script... just dunno if she wanna do it for me... Measurement of Building Works was good... i finally understood wad was taught!!! haha... met my grandchildren and jes for dinner at marina and cleared a few things... 1. positioning... from now on... i'm the oldest, jeslyn second and trina 3rd and we are 3 sisters... gonna find a slot of sumei also... will discuss wif jeslyn... 2. the fact tt i'm not the most fierce guy in the relationship (sorry dar~) thomas is... haha 3. jeslyn finally met all her grandnephew and grandnieces... Dar finally gotta meet his grandson 4. the family tree is finally confirmed (as in offically) so tt would be in the mystige blog... had fun chatting at dinner and cooking and stuff... saw dallas' love for cooking, sher's protection over the sisters and roy's childlikeness... thomas and sher ate red bean ice cream... dallas and i ate durian... jeslyn and roy ate corn (the same way...) therefore we can see who will be whose fav child... NOT... i love all 3 of them ok? and i'm sure thomas too... chilling with this family is very comforting... good to know tt i still have a family tt matters... nevermind tt i'm the oldest... sigh~ In Solitude at 2:45 am 0 shared in solitude i was surfing thru blogs ever since i got home and read link read link read link and my original conclusion stands... my blog is boring and my title not creative and dun really link to the entry... i read http://colinandkero.blogspot.com and i feel tt my relationship wif Dar has been stable... no big reactions from family (Dar's mum and sis knows abt us and is fine and my family... nope... not telling them...) and big events... and in the midst of trying to cheer them... wad i told them kinda struck myself deep... no matter wad happens... u know tt he will always be there... u may not be the best there is for him... but u r the best he wans for himself which is why in the midst of so many pple ard he chose u and in the midst of so much criticism and finger pointing he held onto u... be assured and dun blame urself anymore... no matter wad may happen... and wad Dar said I love you Baby.. I don't care what becomes of you, or what happens to you... You'll always be in my heart... I'll always be your Dar and you'll always be my Baby... Muackz it is not about being the perfect lover but loving the imperfect person perfectly... there may be times when we feel low but somehow i'm assured tt he will see me thru it and i will see him thru it... you raised me up so i can stand on mountains you raised me up to walk on stormy seas i m strong when i am on your shoulders you raised me up to more than i can be ~*-*~ anyways, having read the blog and being a typical kaypo singaporean... i left my comments on their tagboard (which gt flooded within seconds) and then in their comments page... and i suddenly feel thankful tt my blog is not as popular as theirs... i dun think i can take tt load of comments... i should be contented tt there are pple commenting... which brings me to a question... why is it no one comments anymore? why all tagging on tag board??? Josh Groban - You Raised Me Up In Solitude at 1:01 am 0 shared in solitude i just realise that my titles keep repeating itself... how m i gonna link pple to specific postings like tt? sigh~ i miss him!!! kill the spiders to save the butterflies... it is rational until you realise... that by striving for it... you become a spider yourself... i'm nt making sense... ignore me... my brain is dead... i can't create anymore!!! *hang* celine dion - i love you In Solitude at 7:03 pm 0 shared in solitude my blog is THE most boring and not interesting blog ever to be on the face of this earth... tt's my feeling after i see other pple's blog... *suicidal* ok maybe not... skipped school today again... tt makes 4 days in a row of skipping the whole day... pissed customers off lately him: why is ur ice cream so expensive me: because it is quality ice cream... if u want cheap ice cream i suggest M** vanilla cone for 50 cents him: O_o walk away but tt coz they piss me first her: is that green tea? me: yes her: on promotion right? me: ya $2.80. normal price $3.20 her: ok... give me one. me: so it is one green tea? (planning to collect money first...) her: no... i wan blueberry me: O_o... ok... tt will be $3.20 her: oh only green tea is $2.80? me: yes... green tea is gelato of the month her: then give me a green tea... me: sure inside: bitch stupid pple... being in the service line and being served by others i can say: to get good service, respect the person serving u if u act as if u deserve it... chances are u wun get it... but if u r nice and respect the person behind the counter and be courteous first... chances are they will smile at u more and maybe even chat with u... (i do when my customers are nice) of coz having said tt i know of pple who are black sheep... they attitude and give bad service no matter how nice u r... pple like them... PLEASE complain... if not pple get served recieve bad service and feel bitter and then they will go other place and not be nice... pissing the staff behind the counter who in turn give bad service and the vicious cycle will never end... so pple... be nice to get nice service and service... be nice even if the person being served dun deserve it... u will get the blessing and he/she the retribution... kelly clarkson - because of you In Solitude at 12:59 am 0 shared in solitude I just cried if it is of any concern to anyone here... i was thinking of a lot of things today... being in a tired and sick mode i had the 'luxury' of not going to school (without an MC but i dun care... dun even start... not now) and staying at home... then i started thinking of dar... and i really missed him... and then it started... i thought about the people around me... Huishan and Bing Liang once said tt i have alot of frenz coz once a week gt someone who come and visit me at my work... but seriously... how many of them are really close... i feel so lonely... Douglas, Ally, Jeslyn, Trina are pple who had seen me thru my darkest moments... i know... at least i got pple to see me thru those times... but well... let's just say i'm greedy... and this is not enough... Douglas and I know tt we r not on each others' top position in times of trouble... but we know tt we r always in each others' list... Ally gt her stead to be busy wif and i'm just too occupied to meet her and stuff... Trina is in Australia... Jeslyn has to work and when she is free i'm not... and i really feel i had let down tis 4 close pple in my life... i had not been doing my part as a fren to them... Dallas, Roy, Sher, Timo are pple who i really have fun with... hanging out with them makes me forget abt my problems... but truth be told... they are really just kids and not tt i dun trust tt they can't handle problems and r not matured... coz they really are more mature than pple of tt age i know... but they are afterall kids... and i dun wanna burden them... and i feel tt i had let them down too... i've not really been a sporting fren and i know tt i had pissed them off many times... Baby... i miss him... i miss spending time with him... i cannot even remember when was the last time i'm with him alone... when he gives me all his attention... when he apologise over every small things... when he always smile at the sight of me... and i miss all these... now he is either too busy or not really in a good mood... i know i'm suppose to stand by him and give him my all but i'm greedy.,.. i'm selfish... i'm afterall half woman... and i desire tt attention... i know... i've not been doing my own share of the effort in the relationship... and i can't expect too much... and i had let him down too... all these made me think... if they had not known me... would things be much better? would their lifes be easier... maybe... somehow i feel tt i've been a very bad fren and partner... and well if u r concerned and wanna know... tt's the reason why i cried... it is kinda dumb i know... but well tt's me... ~*-*~ leave me be... i'll be fine after a while... dun worry... i think and cry then i'll be fine... nothing a little crting can't fix... i guess tears are good... it ease the pain within... ~*-*~ school has been slack in the first week... coz a lot of basic stuff tt i 'm fine with... so this week on gonna be serious wif my lessons... coz things are gonna pick up... working has taken a toil on me... and i'm very tired... but i guess i'll get used to it... drama classes starting tmr... excited~ (yes... i'm trying to make myself sound ok so you would quit worrying... ) the observatory - this sad song In Solitude at 12:28 am 0 shared in solitude This post is kinda overdue... been tellin myself i'm gonna blog about this and that and stuff but it seems like after 1 week i still have not been doing wad i'm suppose to do... things had been good... started SP with the class i wanna be in... and well... nothing much about school... just a little excited yet tired... today did not go school... not feeling well yet no money to see a doctor... thank God today lecturers dun really teach much... if not... finish... work has been well... settlers cafe is fun and im slowly getting use to the hectic work there... bravissimo is as usual except hwee yin is leaving... new staff coming in... sigh~ Dallas and Roy have been hanging out lately with me alot together wif my 'son' Timo...to think in school pple call me timo... haha... thomas have been feeling very comfortable with them... which is a good thing... heehee... been thinking alot lately... and been in a very reflective mode... there is so much things i wanna do... but all these things are culture influence... i'm following the crowd... but who knows... the crowd may be wrong... recommend 2 books to everyone reading this... 5 People You Meet In Heaven Tuesdays With Morrie these books are very inspirational and i highly recommend the books to you... read them and u'll know why... Lin Yi Lian - Shang Hen In Solitude at 6:37 pm 0 shared in solitude
got a gift for dar on our anniversary yesterday... spent the night at his place but well did not really interact much coz 1. i was on the phone (sorry baby) 2. his ex disturb him over msn 3. my fren was kinda dumb and he nt really pleased wif it... but well... i enjoyed myself just being wif him... been hanging out wif dallas, roy and timo a lot lately... gonna hang out wif ally, jes soon... working at settler's is kinda fun wif cute guys as co-workers and nice pple to hang out wif... the onli bad thing: lotsa running... esp the first day, i'm stationed on the second floor and the kitchen at the first... down and back up consider 1 trip... on the avg from 8pm-1am, every min i make abt 2 trips... tiring... but fun... haha... but still prefer bravissimo coz do nth... muahahaha... Dido- Thank you In Solitude at 4:44 pm 1 shared in solitude this few days been hanging out with my grand daughters (minus the oldest... i still got ur b'day gift rotting at home...) and timo... had lotsa fun... went to settler's on one day... had supper on another... conference calls and stuff... Thomas has been feeling better and i'm glad tt he is... he is cheering up more and i'm more at ease now to see him feeling better... family... wad family? today suppose to go visit mum grave and postponed again... and i just found out why... coz he told bro to tell me and sis about today... then he came and tell me himself so i made plans... while my bro forgot to tell me and sis... so when she made her plans and bro forgotten about it today is cancelled... and when he confronted my bro he say... "i thought it is suppose to be me telling them... since i forgot theni thought no more already..." FUCK YOU LAH... u r the oldest son... u r 23 for crying out loud... can't u be more mature... u r suppose to take lead my the father is not doing his job... and now even u r not doing ut job... fuck... grams wan me to respect u... how to??? if i were to follow the examples set by the older guys in the fmaily... i would probably be the most selfish and irresponsible guy on the face of this earth... lin yi lian - shang hen In Solitude at 4:02 pm 0 shared in solitude these few days have been a rather stressful period... rushed around to get my appeal submitted and family been breathing hard on me... baby's mood is low and it is also his exam period... kinda worried for him... so been pretty down... cried a few times this few days... 31st march suppose to head down to baby's place to stay over... but due to miscalculation of time and the STUPID suntec city which lock all the door at 11pm causing everybody to detour just to get to bus stops and mrt stations... i missed going over... i was panicking coz i really wanna go over and well... i cried when he did not reply my msg... coz of guilt and really sad tt i cannot go over... went over on 1st April, after shoppiing with him in queensway then city hall... met his cousin and looked thru a lot of products at body shop... now gonna save to buy stuff... haha... went home with him, his sis, his cousin and sis bf... had fun laming on the train and really enjoyed his presence at his place... i miss him so much... he kinda ease out by then and his mood was better... and i felt better also... look forward to 10th when we remember that special night in ECP one month ago... baby... i may disappoint u a lot and make u angry or irritated... but i wan u to know that i'll be here for you when u r feeling down... just like u were there for me when i was down... I love you... Stef Sun Yan Zi - Wo Ye Hen Xiang Ta In Solitude at 12:49 am 0 shared in solitude This dedication is to Sherwin 'Prue' Ashton... Today you turn 17... today our age gap shortens to 3 years instead of 4... today is your birthday... being the oldest of the sisters... u get the privilege of getting the well wishes first in the year... may ur days be filled with fun and laughter, joy and smiles... may ur greatest dreams turn into a reality this year... as u complete ur 17th year and venture into ur 18th year... may ur new year be filled with pleasant surprises and happy moments and may u always have pple u call dear to share each and every single moment with you, turning them into memories so sweet... happy and blessed birthday... enjoy urself today... coz it is once in a lifetime... and coz u deserve it... In Solitude at 12:35 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||
