I have tried, I really am and I really did. But everything seem to be falling apart. All my effort to create a different place to work in have seemed to backfire in my face. People are taking me for granted and expecting me to do things that seem very inappropriate. Management is questioning me on my decisions and leaving me to settle so many things alone. Staff is leaving me due to petty issues. I'm left all alone here with more than ever responsibilities and no one to turn to.

I trust that God will make a way for me in this trying time. It is just that this way seem a little bleak at this moment. I feel so lost and so confused it is making me not want to come to work, yet with all this piling up, I have no choice but to come to work. Sleep is deprived, rest is deprived, time is deprived. Emotions are running wild but I have to maintain a strong front for everyone in order to ensure this place keeps running.

I am just a simple person with simple expectation. I am not a very greedy person and I don't think I have done anything to harm anyone. Not much I hope. But things seem to be failing me and eating me up. Nothing seem to be coming back to me.  Sigh~

Do I believe in the greater good or should I change  now?