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I have not been on here for a long time already. Honestly, I really dunno how to carry on looking at my life and blogging here. Many things happened that made me very tired of the life i am living generally. Whining is already losing its therapeutic ability. I am questioning myself everyday. I am no longer making sense. I dun understand how things has spiral out of control like this. I am finding it harder and harder to give myself space to enjoy my own company, solitude. In the midst of all these noise, I find myself feeling more and more lonely. Anyhows, been reading my staff's blog (click to read). Kinda interesting to read how he process his thoughts and his point of views to many things. Out of the batch of staff I have, he has the most potential, and he is also one tt i find hard to read, either coz he is complex or I am really getting bad in doing what I use to do so well. Also, been listening to Tanya Chua's English song a lot. This particular song kinda spell out my feelings lately. Of course, not everything. I am still with him =) Drunk on my sobriety Driven by your insanity Made to stumble in my formative years Could've sworn it was my perversion Care to spare me a minute? Could I be alone for awhile Fortunately you were out of my way Could've sworn it was my possession Until next time Until next life Never knew you'd hurt me Now you crave for sincerity Thought we'd be around for twenty long years So it's just imagination Was it bad now really? When the sex has lost all it's charm Who's to blame for putting up with the fight So it's just to my elation I'll wear my clothes right I'll sleep on the other side I'll say what's necessary Until next time All my entries sound depressing lately. It is bad, right? Tanya Chua - Lost In Solitude at 1:12 am 1 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||