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Another accident at the crossroad. Last week was an accident involving an old man who was killed on the spot after a hit and run. This week was an accident involving two teenage motorcyclists who just got their license about a week or so. Jack and Shuan suffered from very serious injuries and were sent to the nearest hospital. Their family rushed to the hospital together, with both mothers crying their hearts out. The scene so saddening that anyone seeing it will probably cry with them. Alas, Jack passed away due to the severity of injuries while Shuan was a little more fortunate. He survived with both his legs broken and a dislocated lower jaw and shoulder. Life over limbs they say. According to investigations, the fault lies with Shuan. However, due to the fact that there is no eye witnesses, the authorities dropped criminal charges against him. It is now up to Jack's family to pursue civil charges if they want to. "I will definately sue you. You caused the death of my son." Jack's father once went to Shuan's place and shouted this to him. Jack is their only son and they are of some influence in society. But all these were just spoken but not executed. At the end, it was Jack's mother who brought everything to a calm conclusion. "Jack is already dead. What is the use of suing him? It is an accident. No one expected for that to happen." Jack's mother said. "The dead is gone. Everything is fated.The fortunate one to survive should be given the opportunity to live on bravely and not carry the burden of those who had passed on. Shuan was stunned as he stood there and listened to what she said. "Those who are alive dun live for the dead. They for themselves and those who are alive around them. He is already badly hurt and you want to stab him emotionally with this?Do you want to force him to care the emotional scar for the rest of his life?" Jack's mother finally persuaded them to drop the charges. Shuan's family, very grateful, were literally on their knees thanking Jack's mother for dropping the charges. Losing her son but gaining a whole family who respects her and feels that they owe her a lot may just be a little comfort to her. Holding on to the past to tightly may cause you to lose hold of alot of the present. We must hold on to the present and learn to let go of the lost.Bringing the past along as you live your present will only bring you more pain and make it hard to stand up and face your future with courage.Open your heart and mind and discern between the past and present will make your future more fulfiling and only by doing so will u be able to really differenciate between the past and the present. One who always compares his present with his past will discover that only misery will be his true friend. remembering the past so that lesson is learnt but dun lett the past tie you down. Keep history to push u forth... not pull you back... if all of u r wondering... the stories so far (minus the previous one, which i got from an email very long ago) are from a chinese short story book entitled <<这回不做傻瓜>> loosely translated to "This Time I Won't Be A Fool"... met thomas last night after his work at IMH to send him herbal tea... but little did he know i'm having flu also... i did not tell him... anyways... i hope the herbal tea did help him... before that... i caught the clown and the king with douggy and well the movie was ok... but not was intense as we expected it to be... and according to him... there was a ending after the credits... eek! next time watch movie must wait till the credits finish rolling completely before leaving... not saying wad the ending is... haha... very tired coz slept at 12+ after checking out hotels in s'pore and bangkok... s'pore is for our 1 year anniversary(sorry jer... copy ur idea...) and bangkok coz end of year we wanna go bangkok to shop... weee~ gonna sleep... tmr early lessons... sigh~ liang ge nu sheng - tian shi In Solitude at 8:53 pm 0 shared in solitude A girl and a guy were sitting by a beach one night when the girl asked," Why do you love me?" "Well... I just do. There's no reason why." "No... There must be a reason why. Is it because I'm beautiful? Sweet voice? Caring? Why?" "Ok... I love you because you are the most beautiful girl I've met. Your sweet voice never fails to brighten my day. And your tender care and love move me in ways only you can." A few months later, on the way to meet the guy, the girl met with a terrible accident. She was badly hurt and fell into a coma. The guy, worried, rushed to the hospital to visit her. Holding onto her hands, he said: "I love you because you are the most beautiful girl I've met. Now you are injured and no longer look that beautiful. So I don't love you anymore. I love you because your sweet voice never fails to brighten my day. You can't speak to me now. Therefore I don't love you anymore. I love you because your tender care and love move me in ways only you can. You can't care for me and need me to care for you. Thus, I don't love you anymore. Is it true? No. I don't love you for your beauty, your voice, your tender care or anything. I love you for who you are. Which is why I still love you." Sometimes we have reasons to love someone. But if you love only for those reasons, then it is conditional love and not really love. Only if you can go beyond all the negetivity and still love him for who he is, then it is unconditional love. When we quarrel or go thru a rough patch, we often forget that we love him for who he is and not for the many reasons or goodness. Love goes beyond that. very bad day today... woke up feeling unwell... but i can't fall sick... coz dar is sick... must be well to look after him... my sis bed collaspe and my dad refuse to fix it... grams and i have to fix it... he who knows wad to do refuse to do it... they who dunno would have to pick up the mess and do it... spent abt $20 for the nails and drill head to finally get it fixed (of coz the money included our lunch coz did not cook) and after the whole afternoon it is completed... very tired but cannot sleep... thus decided to update with another short story... will update wif more such short stories lookin into different areas of life... heehee... s.h.e - tian hui In Solitude at 2:17 am 0 shared in solitude There was once this old couple who walked into a shoe shop. The assistant attended to them with a warm smile, "Good afternoon, how may I help u?" But the old couple only smiled at them in return. Then they just walked around the shop, looking at the new shoes on display. They look as if they are interested in buying a pair of shoes yet look as if they are just looking around. "How may I help you?" The assistant asked them again. Then again, they smiled in return, saying nothing. "Why so arrogant?" The assistant grumbled in his mind, "YOu really think you are that great?" That is when the old womantook notice of a pair of shoes. "That is the latest arrival, real leather. You got good taste!" The assistant said, trying to make the sales. It is almost immediate that the old man took the shoe, kneeled down and help the old woman try on the shoes, the actions so delicate and careful. This shocked the assistant and was marvelled by the fact that there is still a man who would be so careful and loving towards his wife. "How is it Mum, Dad? Found a pair of shoes you like?" A young man walked in, asking the old couple. The old couple smiled at nodded, looking very pleased, and of course, the deal was closed. "Your parents have very good rapport." The assistant said, handing the shoes and change to the young man. "Ya. They are going to China for a holiday. They say they want to celebrate their 35th wedding anniversary. Sometimes all you can do is to just give in to them." "It is rare for couples to be so loving after so long. As their child, you should be filial and let them be." "I know. Afterall, it has been 35 years and they walked down the path like that. There should be nothing that should seperate them i guess." "Oh? You mean something happened between the both of them?" The assistant asked curiously. "Well, actually both of them were born mute." The assistant was dumb-founded as the old couple, supporting one another, walked out of the shop. Sweet-coated love may not be able to brace the storms ahead. Wordless love may not end negetively. Love is from the heart, received by the heart and experience through the heart. Learn to go beyond words straight deep into a word beyond expressions: the heart, where everything is experienced I love you dar~ happy 19th birthday alicia keys - if i ain't got you In Solitude at 11:02 pm 0 shared in solitude i'm blogging for the sake of blogging... but since i'm here... might as well... many things are different now... things are changing in my life and i m really confused... the mixed feelings being sent and recieved are pushing me towards the cliff... i dunno wad others wan now and i dunno wad i wan... i dun trust myself anymore... i feel so lost... i once enjoyed revelations divine disclosure i once was clear of where to go directions i now feel ignorant and limited blind i now don't know left and right lost i need wisdom and knowledge fill me i need to carry on this misty path guide me ~Tim i.e. me wad is wrong... why is it becoming like tis? well... it is my choice... everything is my choice... the choosing came by chance but the result is by decision... since i chose to do smth i will take in the consequences... Nothing wrong with dying, but with believing that life is always meaningful, that meaning is not a flame we lit ourselves and may flicker ~Cyril Wong nth much happened lately... just camps and CDAC stuff, drama class and very little time wif dar... any time spent i had been pissing him off... a lot... and he has been rather... cautious... abt me and i'm really feeling a little uncomfy... Perhaps there is nothing heroic about choosing life. To do so may be the same as picking an apple amongst apples one morning at the market ~Cyril Wong i'm sinking deeper... deeper... i need to breath... i can't... sarah brightman - deliver me In Solitude at 2:13 am 0 shared in solitude i finally fulfilled my promise... tt is to fetch him from work... gonna do it tmr... but will nt let him know (by the time he reads tis it will be long over) but i dunno if i can wake up in time haha =X out for lunch with him and bought him his b'day coz well the gift is seocndary... wad i'm planning for him is primary... haha... gt his felato cake already... well no harm saying wad i'm gonna do coz it is nth special... sunday just gonna go over and cook him dinner then celebrate his b'day and do a reading for him then gonna spend the night with him... see nth much wad~ no money if like tt sob sob... worked today too but just no mood to work to the best of my ability today... very tired i guess... but well... tmr will do better... been going thru alot mentally thinking of things tt had happened lately causing the whole mood of the circle of frenz ard me to be affected and awkward... there is a lot for me to do right now to re-establish my stand in the midst of them again... but we all know there are some things tt is different now... however i believe with the new day wrongs can be set right and self can be proven... if only both parties are willing... my circle of frenz are very shaken right now... there are pple who are down and sad... there are pple who are shaken and others who are awkward... yet i cannot do anything for them... well... as i promised... i'll always be just a call away... if u need me just call me and i'll try my best to be there for u... celest chong - ping fan xing fu In Solitude at 1:23 am 0 shared in solitude Rip tis from Andrew's blog at http://www.angel_boy.blogspot.com Anyone can stand by you when you are right, but a Friend will stand by you even when you are wrong... A simple friend identifies himself when he calls. A real friend doesn't have to. A simple friend opens a conversation with a full news bulletin on his life. A real friend says, "What's new with you?" A simple friend thinks the problems you whine about are recent. A real friend says, "You've been whining about the same thing for 14 years. Get off your duff and do something about it." A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears. A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book. A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party. A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean. A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call. A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems. A simple friend wonders about your romantic history. A real friend could blackmail you with it. A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself. A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument. A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight. A simple friend expects you to always be there for them. A real friend expects to always be there for you! ponder upon it... lately very tired but well... things are going on smoothly for me... a few pple is making me worried... a few had reasons for me to be happy and well... i just hope that my life wun take anymore drastic changes... i'm tired of the changes... i'm afraid of more changes... Life is lilke a vaccum cleaner... it sucks... Happy 7th Month Dominic and Andrew... may ur 7 Months become 7 years and beyond~ In Solitude at 1:17 am 0 shared in solitude at his place slacking now... was tired until i showered... then nt tired liao... hahaha gt together wif tim, his stead and dar at settlers on sat for gaming and had fun... BETRAYER!! highly recommended game... ate supper nearby then went home... had the CDAC event today (sunday) and had fun doing the stuff as well as planning the structure... was doing games station and think i shouted a lot... gt a few grps very hardworking but a few who nt very honest... haha... went to city hall to meet dar and saw lotsa cute ajs... =X went to esplanade to grab a few books then ate dinner then went to west mall... he wanna watch movie but cinema close... bleah~ so now... at his place... very fun and fulfilling day actually... the helping out at CDAC made the day great although made me very tired... guess tt's why dar and i volunteers... In Solitude at 12:36 am 0 shared in solitude it is our 3rd month today... when things seem bleak and dark u held onto me and me to you... i'm glad to have decided to walk tis path wif u 3 months ago... things happened and things gt nasty... we saw some dark sides of each other... yet held firm to the love tt we will hold onto each other thru good and bad... i look forward to many months to come coz i love you... ~*-*~ went out wif him today... suppose to go fetch him from KK but well met him in Little India instead and decided to go... JP haha... 1. it is nearer to his place and easier for him to go home... 2. wanna go see Kero... coz he msged dar before asking him for help... went there had lunch and saw his back... did nt say hi to him or anything coz by the time we reached the place he works he was gone... dar said he break i say he go home and i guess i was right... hahahahahaha... anyways... all these aside... enjoyed myself wif him... sometimes i guess we lack these moments of intimacy... of just 2 of us talking and walking and spending time wif each other... look forward to later when can spend some time wif him then meet tim and his stead... sarah brightman - deliver me In Solitude at 12:09 am 0 shared in solitude 3 posts in a day... m i tt desperate to chalk up posting? o_O funny how pple react sometimes, myself included... asking for answers then dun wanna listen to the answer... asking for reasons then say no to those reasons, passing them off as excuses... saying tt they understand but then say things tt show they dun... saying tt they dun care but made the most noise about it... funny how they expect things from u yet do the opposite... claiming u should not do tis but do it themselves... claiming tt they did not do things yet had done things in subtle ways... demanding tt others do something but dun do it themselves... demanding tt they r victims and made those who also suffered on their end appear as the ultimate culprit wif no justifications reminds me of a senario: gal: why do u wanna break up? guy: u dun wanna know... gal: no tell me... guy: why dun u just accept it? gal: i will when u tell me why... guy: i... sigh~ i guess i best nt tell u... gal: why? tell me... guy: will u be able to accept wad u hear? gal: yes... tell me... guy: if u insist... i wanna bre... gal: (interrupts) i dun wanna hear it... u r bad man... u never loved me... u never tried to know me... i hate you~ *runs away* guy: o_O i just dun wan u to suffer wif me... i'm dying soon... sigh~ go... i guess tis is also a way out... i'm nt saying i'm tt guy... i'm sometimes like tt gal also... just a thought how pple reacts... lan xin mei - kuang ben In Solitude at 11:18 pm 0 shared in solitude
liang jing ru - lu In Solitude at 8:52 pm 0 shared in solitude tis week has been hectic mainly due to CDAC and the assignments due soon... met my frenz who are going to NS soon... had fun chilling at serangoon ill 2+? great to have frenz to joke wif and laugh wif... wee~ u guys are fun... haha... but dun think they will get to read it... well maybe except for charlie... hahahaha lotsa events coming up at CDAC, where i volunteer and i will be doing lotsa planning for the new direction of the grp i'm volunteering in as well as the events tt i'm invited to be part of... gonna be a fun 2 week holiday... but wad i'm looking forward to is tis saturday... coz i dunno wad he gt for me... haha... and i'm excited to find out... and i hope he will like wad i gt for him... will be seeing tim and his stead tis sat too... better book a table in settlers soon... sian~ liang jing ru - si lu In Solitude at 5:43 pm 0 shared in solitude i wonder how he deals with the guilt... after eating can leave all the things on the table to be cleared... when grams complaining of arching he can still watch tv... when grams complain tt it is hot he can still let her sweat and turn the fan to himself... crap... how to respect an older brother like tt??? he is beginning to worry me... must tis happen everytime our anniversary draws near? when i put the ring on you... i told you i dun wanna lose u... i told u i can't wait to be with you... and it still is now... it is gonna be our third month soon... and i love you... i will be by ur side if tis ordeal must happen again... In Solitude at 3:19 am 0 shared in solitude If tis is not the place for my feelings, i'll retreat further... at tis point of time i've tried to resolve some stuff but if nobody sees the effort i'm sure the Divine saw it... it all started from a difference of thinking which can be resolved by simple understanding yet from tt moment onwards... i've been expected to look pple up to explain things... why is it not the other way around... when u see something u nt happy, instead of starting the 'blog war' u approach me face to face and settle it... why blame the blog war? only u can blog abt how u feel and not me? i guess they r right... we are never really friends to begin with... since we cannot see each other thru a simple disagreement like tt... since there is always one party not ready to meet the other party and wait till the past is forgotten before we can talk yet free to arrange to meet other pple... i guess we had never started off as close frens as we thought we did... if the effort is always on the other party to meet u up on his/her initiative when a problem occurs between two pple that shows how eager u r to solve it... gu zhang nan ming... post and tags have been deleted not becoz i dun wanna face them nor is it becoz i'm running away from them... i read every post seriously and react to them... i understand tt u all have ur own point of view to it... but right here... i have my own views about it too... i have my own feelings about it, even if it is childish and foolish... m i not allowed to be in a bad mood? m i not allowed to be pissed off? m i not allowed to feel low and down? m i not allowed to be hard on my words? y must i always be the guy tt comforts? y must i be the guy tt always give in? y must i be the guy tt bears with other pple? y must i be the guy tt cannot have my own emotions? do i always have to put up wif things? do i always have to smile and let u rant? do i always have to swallow my unhappiness? do i always have to listen and have no chance to release wad is inside of me? can't u just stop being the sun and revolve around me for once? can't u just be more sensitive and know me? can't u just be more gentle and be in my shoes for once? can't u just stop being harsh on me and try to be there for me? is it my job to stick by ur side and let u throw ur unhappiness on me? is it my job to entertain u and nvr be entertained no matter how much i desire? is it my job to just be who u wan me to be and ignore my innermost call for reprive? is it my job to cheer u up and forget abt how i really feel inside? it may piss u all off even further but i guess u wun get piss off anymore abt tis after tis post... In Solitude at 4:42 pm 0 shared in solitude I've deleted posts not because i dun stand by it... coz it is garnering unwanted comments from pple tt should not be involved... Apologies even though u dun wanna hear it: Trina: i guess foremost u had been roped into something and had pissed u off alot... and out of the goodness to help us... u gt snubbed and hurt... i'm sorry... Mun Hong: i guess u will never wanna hear form me judging from ur post... my memory was distorted and i admit tt it is my fault for not confirming wif u... and it is my fault tt things took a turn like tis... at tis pt of time... i know i only gt myself to blame and u have all the right to be angry... i did not explain and i did not make any effort to rectify anything... but truthfully... if u still have any faith in me... the bulk of the post tt u read was not meant for u... it was meant for someone else... anyhow... it dun really matter any more right? i guess i had hurt u more than i can ever imagine... till now did i realise how much things u have against me and how i dun see all tis tt u r not happy wif and still assume things... well... u r right... and i guess u r better off without me... the case is close... if ever u still see me worthy to explain anything at all... contact me... but i guess tt day wun come... judging from the pain i bring forth to u... allow me to offer up my sincere apology... nt in hope tt it would rectify anything coz i know wad i've done cannot be pardoned... but in hope tt i m giving a chance to say sorry from the bottom of my heart for all tt i had done against u... Mystige: i guess i should let go of the Matriarch... dun worry... Thomas is still ur Patriarch but at this point of time... i cannot see myself still in the mystige line... Jeslyn is still ur grandaunt, trina still ur grandaunt or maybe u would arrange for them to take over as the Matriarch... anything goes now i guess... i'm still a fren n ur grams if u regard me as one... but no longer ur ah-ma of the mystige... all tt got into both issues: i'm sorry for causing so much distress in ur lifes... i guess ever since u all know me i've been one tt had caused more pain than joy... more anger than laughter... ur lifes will be better without me... the pains from now on... i'll take it from here... i wish u all best of blessings and luck... all these while i thought i was accepted... i was free to be who i m... without seeing the consequence tt it would bring... and with being myself... i failed to see the agorny i bring to others... i caused much pain and anger in the group of pple who regard me worthy and see me as fren... and now after all tt had happened... i see the flaw in the way i do things... u are all right... i am a hypocrite... i am too dramatic... i'm too fake... leave me be... really... it would be better for all of u... never to had known me... so tt the bad luck and things i bring will never bug u... i'm a jinx and a very hypocritical one... 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