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shortly after the warning is issued... the owner of the blog made personal attacks... deleted my tag on his blog and banned me from posting on his chatterbox... then tag on my board (u pple can read it) making accusation with his less than good english... then say he dun wanna play... is this a game to u? dun u see the importance and the severity of this issue? we who are making a stand are deem childish by u pple... now who is the childish one? and he is 23... gosh... disgrace to the pple of our generation... sigh~ pple nowadays... shameless... yes u... u r shameless... ain't gonna waste my time on u... u can tag on my board all u wan... unlike u... i have nothing to hide... so i wun delete u nor ban u or anything of tt sort... unlike u... who is a coward and dare not face me on ur blog (which has nothing original anyway) i allow u to visit my blog... ur presence is not appreciated though... but... i m a nice forgiving guy... if u wanna copy anything just acknowledge ok? got to see how a person whom trusted me just turn like tt... not standing in my shoes and understanding me... to think we used to be so close... it hurts alot... and as if the pain i m going thru is not enough to wack me off my stand... why m i crying? why should i... coz u meant alot to me... coz i used to call u dear... and yet when things happen like tt... instead of a neutral stand to evaluate and solve the dispute... u chose to stand against me... not wanting to see where i come from and to join him in hurling insults on my fren... i cannot stand it... m i wrong? i dun think so... In Solitude at 11:07 pm 0 shared in solitude http://www.xweix.blogspot.com/ this is a warning (and i repeat... a warning only... if u dun do it... there is no need to feel guilty and get edgy...) to the owner of the above mentioned blog and not and advert... if u see it tt way... there is nothing i can say... (i have to make sure i gt my due recognition before anything happens) first, a template was copied without editing (edit personal info not equals edit template) and after a big kaboodle of exchange on both the owner of the above mentioned blog and the original designer of the template then was his template edited to something less attractive then a poem was copied from yet another blogger... copied without due recognition or acknowledgement (again...) please... for cryin out loud... if u r not creative enough to create and then wanna copy please be honest about it and ackowledge the people whom u copied from... this is the least u can do... u r now copying from people who are not capable of suing... if they are... they will succeed in the case... u no need to apply for copyright when it comes to intellectual property... as long as it is published it is protected... as long as orginal ownership can be proven it is protected... so to help the owner of the above mentioned blog (and whoever who wanna copy from me) let me pose this warning: No part of the blog either written, electronic or otherwise can be reproduced without the prior permission of the blogger who is me... you have been forewarned... dun say i did not warn u... i may not be able to bring legal action against u... but i can still create hell on the froums and the internet... ~-*-~ i have not been to school for the past few days... been feeling rather low and down... cried two nights ago... but well the good thing about this period is tt there is one who have been cheering me up... i will go to school from tmr onwards then hope the lecturers can give me another chnace... it will be hard... wanna take this chance to apologise to my frenz... i m really sorry tt i keep betraying ur trust... for nt keeping my promises... for creating trouble for u... for not being able to be there whenever u needed me... for so much and more... i m really sorry... but also thank you tt after so much... u still regard me as ur fren... pple seen me and left... but u decided to stick by my side to encourage and cheer me on... -ywjx let it go- In Solitude at 10:38 pm 0 shared in solitude
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In Solitude at 12:17 am 0 shared in solitude latest news just in... singapore has just floated to the south pole... it is a freezing phenomenon can be easily observed by placing a cup of warm water on the table for a few minutes and u will gt a cup of ice cool water... been feelin cold cold and cold for the past few days... everytime i step out of my house i will carry my sweater with me... very lethargic and lazy due to the weather... excpet for spending almost $100 on the doctor i m pretty ok... gt frenz who had been by my side... new frenz who cheer me up... old frenz who care and shower with concern... past few days was bad... diarrhea then fever then diarrhea and fever and now just flu... very bad... imagine when u hear me in the toilet u will think i m urinating... everytime for say... 1 week... and doctor's advice... no oily stuff, no dairy products, no spicy stuff... i m dying! but well recovering... so... a few more days of abstinence n i m free... -peng jia hui : jiu meng- In Solitude at 1:08 am 0 shared in solitude been doing some blog surfing while decided not to sleep just in case i cannot wake up for my morning lessons like i had done for the pass few days... i begin to wonder how people see me honestly... and how i see others... i begin to wonder if i m really happy to see the lifes of pple being good... and i begin to wonder why on earth do i not get to enjoy such luxury and deep within... do i really bless them or do i curse them? not really curse but like... find 101 (sometimes even more) reasons why they should not enjoy such things but i should... i m selfish... honestly... i do... but what follows after it is that i found 101 reasons why they should enjoy it... and 1001 reasons why i dun deserve it... to think of it... i had given up hope on many things... i mean i do hope and i just cannot believe that i wun get to enjoy such stuff... and as much as i keep tellin myself... well it will one day... i know... it wun... it wun... i see pple fall in love and i keep askin myself... why him... why is he able to attract pple... i mean i m not tt bad... but lookin deep within... i know... i dun appeal... some pple appeal with looks... some with character... some with intellect... me? looks? i dun look good... and i gt nth to back tt up... no intellect too... jack of all trades master of none... i suck in interpersonal relationship... and i really wanna improve... but i m too childish and horny... really... truth be told...i either let my childish side spoil things or let my sexual urges destroy posibilities... why m i typing these... coz i just wanna find an outlet for all these feelings and thoughts... if all these are too much to bear... remove urself from here... dun leave any traces... no tags no comment no i-told-you-so... just go... i feel bad enough... dun add on... if not... i might just blow my top and hurl insults on u and maybe even ur family tree... trust me... i wanna change... i wanna improve... i keep tellin myself no... i keep tellin myself not to do it... i keep telling myself to take things slowly... i keep tellin myself i m 20... i keep tellin myself to grow up... but... i lost it in the end... what i tell myself not to do... i end up doing it... i keep tellin myself to go slowly... but i always scare pple away with the speed i wanna progress things... i keep telling myself to be sensitive and to put myself ion the shoes of others... but i end up carrying jokes too far... maybe from today onwards... maybe from now on... i will change... but i never succeed... i wann be proud of myself... but i can't find any reason to be... i thank the many people who still consider me a fren... who still consider me as someone who is worthy to hang out with... pple change... i've seen the changes happening so much that i have to stop and think how all these are going and where it will lead me... in tis current stage... i lost a couple of frenz whom i call dear... and trying my best to recover from it... i gained a few frenz who moved up the hierachy of ranking to become closer frenz and gained some frenz whom i dun really consider good frenz until lately... i guess the reason why i m stuck with this is tt i have not decided how i wanna move on... i have not really embraced the identity and to live freely in it... to a certain extend... i m still hiding... the fact tt i gt dual account for almost anything shows tt i m still hiding this side of myself... and in doing so... i limit myself in many things... i dun mean to proclaim it to everyone i see... but i still hide it from pple who are close... and when tt happens... i seek the solace in pple who are not ready for such docking by me... and of coz being the horny brat tt i always m... there are some tt i bring into the sexual realm without their comfort being considered and scare them away... i m still confused on who i really m and wad i really wan... i m in this transition age... i m stuck... i m overwhelmed... i m finding it hard to breath... i m even suicidal sometimes... right now... honestly... all i wan now are pple whom i can turn to... frenz who cares... frenz who wun hide things from me... and frenz who can accept me during my transition state where i m seeking my true identity... who i m and wad i wan in life... if not... leave me now... i rather all of u leave in one go... so tt i feel the pain in one shot... please dun let me get up after the mourning just to go back into mourning coz u suddenly decide tt i m nt worthy enough... after all these... all the release... thinking of others being attached or enjoy their lifes... i can now say... with conviction... that i now really wish all who are attached a happy and blissful life... the happiness i so desire i place them on u... tt even though i dun get it... i know it exist thru seeing it real in ur lifes... leave the best life u can life and fulfill all my greatest dreams and hopes... for me... please... ke yi wei wo er huo de duo zi duo cai ma? -元衛覺醒:過期- In Solitude at 2:38 am 0 shared in solitude i made the mistake once... i made it twice... 3 times... 4 times... but i nvr learn... why? i hate this... i hate all of this... i keep tellin myself nt to do it... i keep tellin myself to change... but... fuck skipped sch again... wad's new... to eric: all the best... my hopes for the happiness tt is so far and hard to grasp is placed in ur relationship... make the best of everything between the both of u as u fulfill the deepest and fondest dream of mine... it is something tt i can nvr have i guess... but m glad tt it exist and i see it in ur life... wo ba xi wang dou ji tuo zai ni men shen shang... In Solitude at 2:04 am 0 shared in solitude i m numb... to the pain... to the agony... to everything around me... tears no longer flow... alas... my traces have been erased... u decided to totally remove me from ur memory... i sent u my final well wishes... and honestly... dun expect anything from u anymore... is it my fault? i dunno... and i dun care anymore... wad have u been tellin the pple around u... who cares? i dun... i gave up... wadeva impressions no longer matter... i've lost... badly... so wad if i retreat? so wad if i keep to myself? so wad if i open up? i can no longer change wad u feel abt me... maybe i should have seen it coming... i only gt myself to blame... goodbye and all the best... may happiness be with u... and please try... quit smoking... life has not been tt bad wif me to think of it... i still gt my classmate to be there even though i m no longer in the class... i still gt a few frenz who are willing to be there even though i bring misfortune to them... i can still meet new frenz... and i will try nt to make the same mistakes... at least now... i can smile... sunday and monday i did not go out... no mood and i just keep sleeping... sunday went home and sleep after dbl o wif jes... slept till 4 called hwee yin to cover for me then continue sleeping... then chatted on msna nd phone for a while after vampire3 and sleep somemore till today 6pm... dreams... the only escape...
-brad paisley & alison krauss whiskey lullaby- In Solitude at 11:12 pm 0 shared in solitude things are different in many aspects... and now... i really dun care anymore... they can think wad they like... i dun care... really... well... maybe except for a few things: 1. DY is pretty bitter abt my leaving... he is hurt very badly... i hope i can bring comfort... he matters to me a lot... in a sincere sense... dun anyhow think... 2. Z is hurt very badly... 3. frenz whom i matter to... well i can't say i dun care... u know who u r... 4. and other things lah... tim is finally out of camp! haha... to think of it... i guess i m the onli left nt in yet... my bro is out and getting on my nerves... and it is onli a few hours... munz is out and we went out watched movie after failin to get the nano but gt a fossil douggy is not out! he is in taiwan... but tt was after he promised we would hang out when he is back... exocism of emily rose is a nice show... nt tt scary to think of it... flightplan tmr!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz slept 5 woke up 8 by dad... gonna go over to grandma before going to see my grandpa in hospital and grams in rehab hospital... In Solitude at 9:53 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
