I used to blog very often ( I think) with an average of 100 post per year (about 1 post every 3 days... What can be so fun that you can blog once 3 days?). Then i enlisted, and got too tired to do so. Now, I am still tired, but at least I got my lappy here with me. 

This is slowly eating into me. The cafe and all that I am doing is. As it goes on, I feel that I am not moving on, not learning anything, not contributing and not growing. i feel so stuck in here and really dunno where I am heading in life (not that I know in the first place). The 6 months here feels wasted. Day after day, I think of leaving this place, but moments after moments, I don't feel like moving on.  This place is fun and the people are nice. But there are people who are not and there are people who just best stay as friends. I am losing touch with many people around me because of this place and with the things happening, I am losing myself.

I want my life to have many funny things to say and do. I want my life to be an impact, but somehow somewhere in some way, I am not. Looking back, the 24 years of existence had brought nothing much but trouble and pain to many people.

I am babbling. I need sleep. When a man is tired and not sleeping, he will tend to get emotional and not make sense. 

I want an Apple also. Iphone, Macbook.