Yes, you can say," Why lament? Just go exercise and lose weight." Well, i am not that determined and I do not really have that much free time on hand, really. Just came back from a meeting with the Franchisors and showered. Where to find time to go jogging.

I was telling a staff that gays normally fall into 3 categories: rich, fit or good looking and I realised that I am neither. Of course not all ajs are like that but generally speaking. So, have I failed?

Someone did ask me before, are you proud to be aj? My answer? I am proud to be myself. Well, there are just too many obligations in this small circle and sometimes I really  wanna make it big in the circle. But the circle is too tiring. Sometimes I really wanna crawl back into the closet and play monopoly with Azlan and the White Witch. But do I regret being aj? Well, I am who I am and I am proud to be me. There is no regrets cause this is who I was, I am and I will be. I may lament about some stuff but I am still proud to be me. I may have failed in some aspects of my life, but I am still proud to be me.

Just going through some prep talk for myself to boost some morale into myself. =)