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i know u r gonna make noise abt this... but still... it's my fault... really... to think of it... i gave u so much insecurities... since day one when we met... to the day i started courting you... you worried about how my enlistment would affect the whole relationship but i kept giving u false hope tellling u i'll give u all my time... when we were in the relationship... i keep disappointing you... keep short-changing you... i made u angry... i was insensitive to u... i made u cry... but... i was on the end of unjustified tantrums as well... and every time u said u were sorry and u wun do it again... it keeps coming back to bite me in the ass... and to pacify u... sometimes i resort to taking all the blame which also is partly due to my inferior complex... but still... as it gets harder and harder to decipher you... i begin to fear telling you things to avoid u getting angry... to avoid any confrontations... to avoid any shit... and many times when tt happens... it ends up being swept under tha carpet to avoid it getting worse... days become weeks become months... 7 months into this relationship... a hill has appeared underneath the carpet... and every time tis mine is touched, it blows up... more and more frequently it gets detonated... and we do more to avoid the mine, building up the hill under the carpet... of coz habits set in as well and as we get use to each other in our own ways... we started having different expectations for each other thus creating more misunderstandings and miscommunication... i no longer know you... and you no longer know me... will it be easy to clear all these up? i hope so... but i dunno... will it be better tt we wrap things up now? i dunno... seems like it... but then again... i need some time to think thru this... and tis time... it is really my fault... 叶倩文 - 真心 In Solitude at 2:07 am 1 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||