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one person's blog i really enjoy reading is andrew's blog... those who are interested... his blog is at: http://angel_boy.blogspot.com (first in the s'pore category... i'm second... haha)  his insights to many things happening made me wonder... i have insights too... why dun i blog about them... haha... actually i dun... i'm just saying... i thought i would make it to the light category of his list... i guess i'm nt doing enough =Xthen i wondered... who reads my blog anyway? then i questioned... who m i blogging for? then i reasoned... it doesn't really matter... this is where i'm who i m right? so who cares abt who is reading this and who is not... wadeva... recent events made me realise... it is not really about wad is happening that is making me uptight and unhappy... it is wad is going to happen... enlistment... alas... it is my turn to go in... will i survive? will i become like my brother, ill-tempered and vulgar... will i become like gerald, declared 302 and possibly ostracised... will i become insane from all the stress... will i become quiet and emo... or will i come out a stronger, better person... rising above all the difficulties... i dunno... and i fear all the uncertainty tt is to come from the 2 years in army... including the possible effects it will bring to my relationship wif baby raccoon... fear... there is nothing to fear but fear itself... all of life's regrets started from 'if' but i can't help but to be afraid... to ask 'if'... sitting in front of the monitor at 1.55am suggest tt i can't really sleep... the tingling feeling within is keeping me awake... Evanescence - Bring Me To Life In Solitude at 1:44 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||