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just realise my blog's birthday is coming... i started tis blog in may 2005 and it is gonna be may 2007 soon... how time flies... just finish watching a few shows lately... nie zi and zhong ji yi ban... nice shows... muahaha... and then suddenly i started wondering... would i make it if i would to go into show biz... i guess not... pple r good looking in tt circle... i guess i onli belog to the aj circle... haha... aaron yan is cute... in zhong ji yi ban and in the group... i find him really cute... guess it is a good thing... with my frenz like jiro and chun... i gt one tt nt much pple will fight wif me... haha... and he is one year younger than me... 1986 baby... whee~ but it also means one thing... i'm getting older... now pple in the biz are beginning to be my birth year... it used to be 78,79,80... now it is 83(hebe) 84(tang yu zhe) 85(meng zhe)86(Arron Yan) and soon it would be 88 89 90... anyways... more abt myself... fell sick lately... and totally lost the mood for settlers... dun really feel like working there already... i had pretty much handed over all my duties to zahari... mohan is also beginning to step into my sphere of control (again) and serene is getting very stern with me... guess i'll just step down and hand everything to them... i dun wanna be in charge anymore... but saying is easier... i guess i still cannot let tis go... after all, it has been a year since i started slogging there and climbed from nobody to the highest paid and position there... it reminds me of the days i'm in st john's... but unlike then... i didn't take a strong and strict control over everything... i guess tt is when u have been out and running... u realise that things cannot be done the way it used to be done... but maybe if i had been like tt... mohan would not eat into my sphere... and i would be able to do the things i wanna do my way... haha... but then again... tis is not my cafe... i just work for them... they pay me... unlike st john... i was free to do anything... coz it is after all a 'student driven' group with a lousy teacher in charge... really missed the good old days when things are simplier... i miss the times when everything is stressful but never pressing... stress then and stress now is so different... wadeva happened then is now, i guess, a breeze to us... i'm 22 now... come 23, 24, 30, 40, 60, death... time really will fly... (i know how to count... but if i were to type out everything... it is gonna be very very long and boring) and looking back... will i be able to tell myself i've done wad i wanna do? will i be able to tell myself i've lived my dreams? i dunno... i always dreamt of being in the showbiz, and of all places taiwan's show biz... i always liked working wif kids (nt young kids mind u... older ones) and i always wanna be a counsellor... dunno if i can ever achieve these dreams... sometimes... dreams will always be dreams... the furthest from reality is dreams... there are pple who make their dreams come true... but how many? well... a new song by Fahrenheit, Fei Lun Hai... i like the tune and the lyrics... and i hope those who chance upon tis place will like it too... 沒人了解 才選擇隔絕這世界 有點疲倦 已決裂的信念 白色球鞋 走不回喧鬧的海邊 月光營火 照亮許多笑臉 瘋狂畫面停留在眼前 默契卻漸行漸遠 我們約好闖蕩的那片天 我一個人向前 我流浪在擁擠的從前 複習一頁頁黑白的空蕩夏天 呆坐在熱鬧的路邊 啤酒沒變甜 卻少了傻得很認真的心願 我流浪在孤單的邊緣 懷念揮霍著笑聲的耀眼藍天 聽著那熟悉的音樂 只剩下琴弦 希望讓時間回到誤解那天 能有機會說聲抱歉 苏亦承 - 保护色 (终极一班 电视原声带) In Solitude at 5:13 am 3 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||