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Found this real nice old Ayumi song online... A Song For XX (translation below) doushite naite iru no doushite mayotte ru no doushite tachidomaruno nee oshiete itsu kara otona ni naru itsu made kodomo de ii no doko kara hashitte kite nee doko made hashiru no ibasho ga nakatta mitsukaranakatta mirai ni ha kitai dekiru no ka wakarazu ni itsu mo tsuyoi ko da ne tte iware tsudsukete ta nakanaide erai ne tte homeraretari shite ita yo sonna kotoba hitotsu mo nozonde nakatta dakara wakaranai furi wo shite ita doushite waratte ru no doushite soba ni iru no doushite hanarete ku no nee oshiete itsu kara tsuyoku natta itsu kara yowasa kanjita itsu made matte ireba wakari aeru hi ga kuru mou hi ga noboru ne sorosoro ikanakya itsu made mo onaji tokoro ni ha irarenai hito wo shinjiru koto tte itsu ka ura kirare hanetsukerareru koto to onaji to omotte ita yo ano koro sonna chikara doko ni mo nakatta kitto ironna koto shiri sugite ta itsu mo tsuyoi ko da ne tte iware tsudsukete ta nakanaide erai ne tte homeraretari shite ita yo sonna fuu ni mawari ga ieba iyu hodo ni warau koto sae kutsuu ni natte ta hitori kiri de umarete hitori kiri de ikite iku kitto sonna mainichi ga atari mae to omotte ta Translation Why am I crying? Why am I lost? Why did I stop? Please tell me When will I grow up? How long can I stay a child? Where have I come running from? Where am I running to? I had no place to live. I couldn't find one. I don't know if I could have any hope for the future. They always said I was a strong child. They praised me, saying "you must be strong to not cry." I didn't want those words at all. So I pretended not to understand. Why are you laughing? Why are you by my side? Why are you leaving me? Please tell me. When did you become strong? Since when have you felt weakness? How long must you wait for the day you understand to come? The sun is rising. I must go soon. I can't stay in the same place forever. You will someday be betrayed by your trust in people. I thought it was the same as being rejected. At the time I didn't have that kind of strength. I definitely knew too much. They always said I was a strong child. They praised me, saying "you must be strong not to cry." The more people said things like that, the more even laughing became agony. I was born alone. I'll go on living alone. thought that surely that kind of life is appropriate. In Solitude at 4:24 am 1 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||