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If tis is not the place for my feelings, i'll retreat further... at tis point of time i've tried to resolve some stuff but if nobody sees the effort i'm sure the Divine saw it... it all started from a difference of thinking which can be resolved by simple understanding yet from tt moment onwards... i've been expected to look pple up to explain things... why is it not the other way around... when u see something u nt happy, instead of starting the 'blog war' u approach me face to face and settle it... why blame the blog war? only u can blog abt how u feel and not me? i guess they r right... we are never really friends to begin with... since we cannot see each other thru a simple disagreement like tt... since there is always one party not ready to meet the other party and wait till the past is forgotten before we can talk yet free to arrange to meet other pple... i guess we had never started off as close frens as we thought we did... if the effort is always on the other party to meet u up on his/her initiative when a problem occurs between two pple that shows how eager u r to solve it... gu zhang nan ming... post and tags have been deleted not becoz i dun wanna face them nor is it becoz i'm running away from them... i read every post seriously and react to them... i understand tt u all have ur own point of view to it... but right here... i have my own views about it too... i have my own feelings about it, even if it is childish and foolish... m i not allowed to be in a bad mood? m i not allowed to be pissed off? m i not allowed to feel low and down? m i not allowed to be hard on my words? y must i always be the guy tt comforts? y must i be the guy tt always give in? y must i be the guy tt bears with other pple? y must i be the guy tt cannot have my own emotions? do i always have to put up wif things? do i always have to smile and let u rant? do i always have to swallow my unhappiness? do i always have to listen and have no chance to release wad is inside of me? can't u just stop being the sun and revolve around me for once? can't u just be more sensitive and know me? can't u just be more gentle and be in my shoes for once? can't u just stop being harsh on me and try to be there for me? is it my job to stick by ur side and let u throw ur unhappiness on me? is it my job to entertain u and nvr be entertained no matter how much i desire? is it my job to just be who u wan me to be and ignore my innermost call for reprive? is it my job to cheer u up and forget abt how i really feel inside? it may piss u all off even further but i guess u wun get piss off anymore abt tis after tis post... In Solitude at 4:42 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||