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I went drinking just now at east coast... wanna escape form the house suddenly... i caused the barley to overboil and spill all over the stove and really pissed at myself... n after my brother... i took a breather... down 2 bottles of bacardi breezer (i know... it is not strong and stuff... but i dun normally drink and i gt drunk easily...) my readings are getting very off lately... and my understanding of astrology is beginning to seem very surface and bad... i no longer have tt confidence in my readings and my interpretations of both the cards and astrology... somehow i feel a lot of things is my fault... and tt pple will be better off without me... dar... i think u will be... lesser troubles... lesser things to worry abt... no one to throw tamtrum at u... no one to drop hints on u and make u guess... no one demanding u to be sensitive for him... i guess i'm just not good enough for u... i dunno... i love u... and i wan the best for u... and i think i'm not tt best for u... i hate thinking... it makes me cry and hate myself... and tt's wad i'm going thru now... crying and hating myself... and since i can't even love myself... how can i love u well? Mavis Hee - Tie Chuang In Solitude at 2:12 am 3 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||