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I read the 2 comments in my previous post and can't help crying... thanks Jes, Trina and Dar for the msg on comments and tagboard... i'm fine... just tt sometimes family is overwhelming... the past few days are great... thursday spent it with dar on movie marathon... the maid, howl's moving castle and phantom of the opera... friday was my audition with fun stage... left dar's place late and was panicking... but it turned out just fine... sorry dar for bombing ur sms and for making u angry and worried... i know u r not really happy and tt made u kinda argue with ur mum... but the audition was cool... saturday suppose to go for the tomb tour by SPI... but i was late coz grams prepared my lunch and she insist that i eat before going out... halfway got diarrhea... took a cab to zion road instead to meet them but still too late... gave up and went to meet dallas, roy, tim... msged dallas but he no reply... so i msged tim and roy instead... at the end is the replies did not get thru... and i thought he dun wanna waste msg or something... haha... bought gelato for them and we had a gelato treat together... (they paid for the gelato of coz... no money to treat... haha) greg joined us, zeke too then they left while we are left to chill and suddenly the idea of going overseas was brought up and suddenly we had endless to talk abt.. tim have to leave so we decided to move the chatting to tim's void deck... and the three of us talked abt lotsa stuff... greg joined tim came down then went home and we chilled till today 7.30am... talked abt staying in australia together... abt doing a drama production soon... and many other stuff... we all just couldn't stop talking... on the way home... i felt tt it was really great at tis point of time to have gotten to know ashton, dallas and roy... shared many stuff and talked abt many stuff... i dunno... maybe because they are frenz... they dun take understanding for granted and makes the effort to empathise and understand... being at home... it feels tt everyone wants to be understood but no one wanna understand and sometimes it is extremely taxing to be at home... i like hanging out wif my frenz and dar... at least i feel more comfortable with them... it feels suddenly tt i'm not alone... i'm wif pple who will be there... family seemed to have collaspe after she joined the family... family is no longer wad it is suppose to be... and as if it was not bad enough... Ohana... it means family... no one gets left behind... (Lilo and Stitch) my family... everyone is leaving seperate lifes... coming back to the house to sleep eat and chill... home is no longer home... and it is now tt i've decided... i've done enough for the family... since i m old enough till now... tis year i turn 21... i've been looking out for the family... my oldest bro for himself and my sis for herself... i got enough of cleaning up after their mess... esp. after today when i told my sis something my bro said and i gt scolded for starting a quarrel... it is time they clean their own mess... my responsibility is over... it was never mine to begin with... i have to carry the responsibility of the eldest and he gets away with all the privellges of the birthright... i'm tired... Liang Jing Ru - Lu In Solitude at 9:34 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||