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today darn pissed... dunno why... very bad mood... we decided not to meet each other till after his exams... for him to study and for me to have some time for myself... but i miss him badly... i guess i would just have to get use to seeing him less... i flunk my papers... not permitted to carry on course of study... am feeling real bad and alot of pple are putting me down... my grams kept scolding me after i told her abt it... i mean i'm beating myself up enough already about this and i dun need you beating me up too... a part of me wanna continue... i mean tis course i've been studying for 2 yrs and i onli fail tt one module 2x... the rest i still can pass... should i take the chance and chiong tt one module 1 more time? i wan a diploma badly... and my aculative GPA is still a pass... meaning tt i still can make it... but the other part... it is wasting lotsa time... wad if i fail again? then it is really useless... and i'm kinda tired wif tis course... i wanna go NS quick then do something else with my life... but if i quit now... all i have is an o-level cert... i can go nowhere... take part time dip? go australia? i dunno... and i fear tt path... yet carry on with the appeal seems meaningless too... sigh~ bright side watched date movie wif dar, jes and munz... then watch v for vendatta wif dallas, roy, zeke and tim (zeke's fren) and i enjoyed myself out wif them... i go appeal then see if approve or not then decide... i dunno wad should i do now... i miss u dar~ i really do... alex toh & shunza - zhen de xiang ni In Solitude at 3:18 pm 3 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||