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Standing in the crowded Whynot on the 3rd of Feb... the feeling of loneliness sets in... the feeling of being lost in the midst of familiar faces... the overwhelming feeling of being a stranger although there are people that i know... i tried to hide the agony... the thought of blurring my vision should help dull the pain a little... i'm wrong... when everything seems like a blur... the isolation becomes stronger... even familiar faces disappear... i wanna fill that void and i gave into the violent indulgence of the music playing... the harder i dance... the more apart i feel from the group... the more i indulge the more i feel separated... i looked around... people mingle... i'm forgotten... my existance becomes a question... i gave up... i stopped and looked into a mirror... i saw myself... i'm here... why do others no see me? instead of being in the moment and enjoying... the moment enjoy mocking me... ~*-*~ i managed to get lotsa things done on Friday after all the sickening delays and postponning and plan spoiling... i got my membership renewed... i got my dental appointment fixed... i collected(and spent) my pay... clarified project details... bought dessert for my frenz at Bravissimo... then i met Jeslyn and Trina and went to MoS... a great place to club except for the crowd being a little not auto and sensitive to the fact tt there is no where they can squeeze... gt R(A) show to watch and enjoyed myself there... at abt 12.15 they left for MoMo, which i cannot enter while i head down to Whynot with Jeremy after stumbling upon him in MoS... met his frenz Henry and Ken and while they enjoyed... i got lost in my own world of thoughts and feelings... so intense i m sure they must think i m either crazy or probably schizophrenic... left for supper then head back to the hotel and watched whose line is it anyway... very funny... Sat came and i went home got change and fresh clothes then head back... tried to enter MoMo again but cannot... so after having supper at Maxwell me and munz headed back to the hotel for a session of Tarot and chatting... Sunday came and went with me eating with Shanghai food and carried on the rest of the day as planned... met Jeremy for Sakae Sushi and went to Tiong Bahru to chill... at Mac... i saw someone who acts exactly like me... the way i cross my arms... the way i stand and move when i talk... so similiar... caught the last bus and got caught in the rain... gt home to do my contract procurement and submitted a 24 page tender document, a tender report, 2 specifications and some tendering procedures work to Ms Liew and met Jes to chill at ECP... gt home... stupid internet refuse to connect till now... busy week... and guess wad... (it is nth new actually) i'm sick again... after recovering from diarrhea... i'm now down with flu and fever... this suck... ECT due... Trina flying off this weekend... Deb next weekend... sigh~ my frenz are leaving me... 同类 - 孙燕姿 In Solitude at 2:07 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||