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2 major things happened today... 1. i feel tt i 'dui bu qi' Jeslyn... when she needed someone by her side... i was not there... one whom she trust would be by her side is no longer by her side... i know how she's been feeling lately... esp. after Trina's departure back to Sydney... but after assuring tt i would make myself free on wednesday for her... i kinda betrayed tt trust and broken the promise that today will be left for her to see if she is free to meet up... coz tuesday suppose to meet her but i wanna prepare for today's paper (which i did not go coz at the end coz i just gave up hope)... after reading her msg... i feel tt i could have prevented her to feel tt way... if only i kept to wad i told her... 2. i have decided to cancel off my M1 line... i dun care about wad my sis is gonna say... and she better pay off her debts by 1st Sept... she gt her singtel line under my name and i just found out that she owed Singtel $719.67!!! i confronted her with a resolution but she just screamed back at me... sigh~ and when i told my grams abt it... she just scolded me for wasting money... been feeling low lately too... i dunno... just tt i feel insignificant... and my mood seem to be heading down... i have been thinking alot... i guess tt's why Jes and I can be such understanding frenz... she has been true to her feelings and has been understanding... and she has been able to sympathise with my feelings and see things from my point of view... and like me... she thinks alot too... my feelings are mixed yet i dunno wad is being mixed and wad is mixing them... i'm sorry my friends for being only trouble... for breaking promises... for not being able to be there... for being unable to help... i'm sorry for bringing only sadness and trouble to you... for bring ill fortune and bad luck... i'm sorry for causing so much pain in ur life...for causing tears more than smiles... if u had not known me.. would things be different? In Solitude at 10:10 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||