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It has been raining since new year's day... the terrible rain just refuse to stop... sigh... alas alomost 20 days has pass since the countdown and many things had happened since then... the rain, the mood, my health, the relationships around me... they just keep heading down... the rain had not stopped... it has been raining making it very cozy and comfy to sleep... but also making it very emotional... sometimes i just sit and watch the rain go down... the streets so quiet and the mood just go down down down... my mood is very bad lately... simply no mood for anything and the only thought in mind is really only death... not tt i will commit suicide... coz i dun really believe in the phuckin idea tt death is the solution to everything but death as in i will be able to turn my back at all these problems and pain i m facing... my grandma has been accusing me of taking drugs, smoking and drinking... when i go to school she thinks i m hanging out in a gang or doing some illegal stuff... i had been fighting with her with words and now... i really have nothing to say to her... my home has now become but just a hostel... i m dying to move out... i m dying to get out... my chest pain has been acting up again... i m assuming it is the chest wall infection from the last time coz the doctor did mention tt it will come back... my head is acting up i guess probably due to the stress... sleep never seem enough... the tension between my frenz are building up... my class relationship is at its all time high in soreness... from wad i see... there is very little intergroup interaction... and there is a breakdown between 2 frenz of mine over a letter... i will write abt it after i completed my assignment... i m using tt story as the assignment for understanding others' emotions... and really i m beginning to wonder if i have a part to play in it... i never really m a harbringer of good luck... i m always known to have foul luck... and i always have wondered if those pple around me dun know me... will their luck be different... *~*~* the comments page is useless... no one post comments... why have i worked so hard to get it working? Ann Kok 忽略(Neglect) In Solitude at 12:53 am 1 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||