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today is the 3rd day of the new year and i m beginning to hate the new year... i piss my frenz off making them unhappy... i piss my family off... esp. my sister... and i finally get to see how my sister treats me and values me despite all she says... i feel more lonely as the days progress in 2006 and it is only the third day... i cried for the first time in the year... i wan my wish to come true... i m tired of life... the only reason why i m carrying on is because i have to... i dun agree to suicide but death really seem to be the only way out of my misery... if i die... my family would be sad for a year or two... then they move on (judging from the way my family sees me... i doubt 1 year is how long they take... maybe 3 months...) my frenz would be sad for a while then talk about me ocassionally... but now living in my 21st year... i already dread living and dread growing up... i need encouragement and love from people around me... why dun they understand... family is no longer family to me... it is no longer a home... it is just a house to me now... i have no home... In Solitude at 7:31 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||