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this is the 150th post in this blog... 50 post in 7 months... is this bad? i guess i had pretty much learnt solitude in the past 7 months since my 100th post and 1 yr anniversary of the blog... i've learnt to survive the harsh conditions and to rely on myself... the loneliness maybe overwhelming... but i've numb myself to it... things would be much easier if i have frenz who can see me thru... and i do have a few: Ally, Jeslyn, Douglas, Tim... but how much can they help? the gals will never fully comprehand wad i go thru... douglas too... tim may but well he got a stead to worry about... things may seem alright from the surface but deep within m i really fine? even i myself have lost the answer... sometimes i feel things are not really as it seems... take for example: i don't see people more ready to open up about their sexuality even though people say that singapore has open up... people still look at us with prejudice and mockery... being the minority hurts... i may be a loser... but in moment like this... if u r someone close... u would have found away to express it in a gentler way... u may wanna spur me on a little but by the expression... it is better if u kill me... i'm lost... my thoughts, my feelings, myself... confused and lost... who would be willing to extend that hand to see me thru... really... i dun need a relationship... i dun need a stead... all i need is someone to be close... someone who can keep me company... someone who can hold me and spur me on gently... i need a soulmate... a fren who would be there no matter wad... -ywjx dou yu- In Solitude at 2:21 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||