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everything is so dysfunctional now... my life is in a mess: i dunno where i m going or wad is happening now... i need my results to decide where i wanna go in the next sem... and i know the results suck so i have to face my aunt and my grams who will be trying to convince me to sign on... my finance is in a mess: i signed up for some financial saving plan for 40 SGD a month and overspent my hp bills and still gt a chalet to pay... my health is in a mess: i m fat and not healthy... i m weak and still nt execising and adding on to tt... i m sleeping late... my social life is in a mess: i m pissing pple off... i m making pple upset... i m acting 'dao' coz i shy sometimes esp when meeting pple i nt very close... my emotional life is in a mess: well actually this is better... just tt the decision tt i made will make me feel very sad abt having to leave some pple... my mental health is the only thing tt is not really messed up coz well... nth to be messed up wif... sigh~ bright side... decisions made had kinda perk me up a little... and i dunno... i kinda wanna look forward to stuff now... i guess i wanna mature... skye is right... we can be childish sometimes, esp when the time is right for it... but when it is not... we must be mature to face the things... we have to grow up... *smiles* it is time... i m turning 21 soon... pple ask me why i m nt changing my blogskin... well it is becoz i love this skin and i dun wanna spend time to find another skin and then edit it to fit my feelings and taste... maybe when i gt more time then i go and find... and give some freshness... but well tis is good... mature lookin yet in it a little of the childish persistant and a emotional touch to the whole thing which speaks of how i feel... in a world of confusion where i dunno where i belong, i need to breath... derrick hoh wei jian - piano In Solitude at 4:44 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||