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met someone new online... someone whom i can link with emotionally... but... someone still matters to me... things kinda wun happen between us... and i kinda had let go... but seeing his msg or receiving his call still makes my heart miss a beat... tis new guy... well... he is one whom i can link with emotionally and he already call me dear on a few occasion... i admit i have positive feelings towards him but i dun wanna jump into things too quickly... i worry for him... i think of him and wonders if he is ok.. when he tells me he is in some kinda trouble i worry and think... but... i dunno... i dun wanna jump into things too quickly... neither do i wanna give him too much hope when at the end of the day i cannot bring him the love that he wans... i always end up disappointing pple and hurting pple... i wanna develop it further... i wanna love him... but i m afraid i can't give into him... and honestly... i m afraid tt he will turn up to be one tt demands too much from me... i always need some space for myself... tt is my nature... i m a guy of occasional solitude... i need space to breathe... which is why sometimes i really fear relationships... maybe i m not mature enough... maybe i m not in a position to love... maybe... feel so lonely and detached now... esp after he told me i made him cry... i feel... sigh~ i'm sorry... -ywjx tian kong- In Solitude at 3:13 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||