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Fark... after all the typing i type... the post did not get thru and there... i have to retype... shit... the day draws near... and i begin to wonder if anyone will remember me and respind to my invites... i mean there are pple who dun wanna come close to me... pple whom matter to me... of coz there are a few who do and i really appreciate it.. but there are many more whom stays far from me... to love me from afar... coz i m not lovable to them near by... and i wonder why... wad abt me tt keeps pple away from me... i guess it is time... i m hitting the 20th mark... it is time to stop being childish and lame and be mature and serious... it is time to be and adult and start being harsh then to be so lax abt myself and act like a child... it is time to control myself instead of doing wad i feel... i hate growing old.. i miss the time when mum is ard and be so carefree... wif mummy to look after me... i hate myself... more and more and more... i dun deserve anything i guess... another lonely year... but does it matter? In Solitude at 10:18 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||