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everything now suck... i m beginning to lose the motivation for life... everything has not much meaning to me now... i have already lost all rights to be angry, and to display emotion infront of my classmates... my grandpa is in a critical condition, having cardiac arrest a few days ago... and such... i have been eaither missin lessons or project meetings or coming very late... they dun really see the effort i put in.. coz wad they saw is my wrong... is the fact tt i had not been fulfillin my other duties... but when the duties are fulfilled at my expenses... it is onli right... i feel so wronged... i need my space as well... i need my rights to display my emotions as well... but i had no one to talk to... i guess i will just tone down and keep my comments and thoughts to myself... being too active sucks... it just rope in unnecessary stress and unhappiness to both me and the groupmates... SL is very unhappy with me... i can see it in her eyes... and she has begin to avoid me and will talk to be only when absolutely necessary... relationship with the pple ard me has just hit rock bottom... pple are unhappy but i dun blame them... it is me anyway for causing such unhappiness... i guess it is their misfortune knowing me... been having disturbing dreams as well about the supernatural... and it is kinda affecting me... making me think abt why these dreams actually occur... life suck... it really does... i m lost... confused... and i dunno where i m or where i wanna go from here... life has just got worse... and something tells me it wun be the end... jukebox [YWJX - Tian Kong] In Solitude at 4:28 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||