| Solitude ~ A Personal World of My Own
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| A world mixed with fact and fiction. Yet, a world where I am who I really am. Things you may not know can be found here. Look around and leave with a better understanding that my world is not as bright and colorful as it always seems. Enjoy the ride.
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Monday, June 13, 2005
lonely
the third week of school and already i had chalked up 3 MCs... fever, recover, flu, recover and now... fever again... been feeling very tired and low and down...and also been spending a lot of time at home... being alone and at home with nth to do... i did a lot of thinking...
i feel lonely... i know... i may be alone but never lonely and stuff... but i feel an emptiness within... and after spening so much time to look for someone to love and be loved and still can't find any... i begin to wonder... why? why can't someone accept me for who i m... why can't someone look beyond my skin and into my heart... why can't i find one who wun go... sorry you r not my type... it is just a nicer way of saying i m not as good lookin as they expect... i know... we all wan someone who is better lookin but does tt mean tt pple who are nt good lookin have no one to have and hold? i always wondered... when will we learn not to look at the surface but beyond tt, at the heart of someone... the inner beauty... m i gonna give up... i might... coz i m really tired... i just wanna be loved... is it too much to ask for? sometimes i actually wanna die when i turn 21... i somehow feel tt i dun really matter... i mean one loser is a lost to the world how? but i guess after all these whining i will move on...
something light-hearted... 3rd week of school an i have missed a total of 1 1/2 weeks of classes... but everything is still managable... i still can do my tutorials... which is a good thing... went for the drama showcase and i kinda regret not being involved... they had a lot of fun and stuff but well i will get over it... the whole things was well done... i enjoyed myself during both showtime... esp. the second drama... after the minor changes to the script and nat and prinston protraying their role better... the show was much more enjoyable...esp with shane's music... things became so much better... but i feel i can do better... the role of kenny is nice... if there is a chance... i really would wanna do tt role... the first one had changes to... and i really m touched to see the script brought to life like tt... my efforts are not really wasted... coz simone did not really change my blocking... she just added to them... and the basic interpretation is still my interpretation... and she mentioned my name twice... muahahaha... but if i was involved my name would be on hte crew list... but well... it is ok... at least i know i was once involved and i did contributed to it...
jukebox[maroon 5 - she will be loved]
In Solitude at 5:44 pm
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