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i can't help but feel left behind... lookin at how others have frenz, how they have bond so suddenly and stuff... i really can't help but feel ignored and insignificant... i know wad u (read: ally, tim, douglas and ronald) r gonna say... tt u are always here, tt u r my frenz etc etc tt u care and stuff... u know... i know all these... i know tt u will always be there for me and blah... but lookin at things this way: tim and ronald: u r attached... there are things more important... douglas: u r in the army... as much as u want to... how often can u be? ally: well.. only u i gt nth to say... but similiar in the case of douglas... u will find it hard to fully comprehend the stuff... but still tot he 4 of u... thanks so much for being there... now let me whine ok? been spending time at home these few days without stepping out of the house... gonna go out and jalan jalan tmr... but the key is not this... it is this past few days... i noticed tt there is no one i can ask out, no one to chat wif online and well... i gt no one to turn to... i saw my brother and his pri sch fren after so many years still strong in frenship... while me, having a good fren in pri sch but by sec 2 i m forgotten... i see how many pple have frenz to hang out and chat wif to wee hours of the night... but me? wanna find someone to chat wif also hard... sigh~ i feel miserable... lonely... depress... and low esteem... now why the title: 3 MAJOR things tt is brewing trouble... 1) My handphone has been suspended and my sis is not helping me at all... the number is her name... she ain't helping me... i ask she say 'forget' then let it off... miserable... help anyone? tmr going to M1 and beg them... 2) Service restructuring... gonna split form youth... and under uni leadership... things are gonna get so dead now... coz of the maturity of the uni and the child-likeness of the poly... 3) my grams finally asked me the golden question during causal dinner chat... do i like guys... shit... too much sgboy at nite when i think she is not watching... can't blame her... been on screen staring at guys in trunks or topless (hotbods and some ads mah) till she gets so suspicious... i dun wanna tell her the truth but i dunno how to carry on pushing it aside... tis spells trouble... jukebox[sarah brightman deliver me] In Solitude at 2:35 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||