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it is eating me up from within... many times i just wish time would just freeze there as it is... how nice it would be if things were to stand still where it is at the sweetest moment... i am hurt... badly from the moving of time... when pple i really treasure no longer value me... and i regret many actions i made... name just 2 out of the long list: 1) I really regretted my past... where i choose to satisfy my raging hormones... i feel like a whore now... seriously... 2) I regret breaking up with Melvin... lookin at his fridae pic, reading my handbook... and a card he written... i realise that i could not let him go... and that he still means a lot to me and i still love him... but well... it is the end... no use regretting... i made the choice... Listing the list of 10 pple whom i treasure a lot or have a special place in my heart apart from my family(not in order) 1.Aaron 2.Ally 3.Liang 4.Ronald 5.Douglas 6.Melvin 7.Tim 8.Munz 9.Ash 10.Qin but well how much do i mean to them... Aaron... how far have u drifted from me... how i wish time would freeze at the time when i knew the you that would call me and talk abt almost anything... Liang... how distant have we become suddenly... u no longer sit by my side like u use to... Melvin... how have i regretted... i suddenly rather we carry on... then let something break us up... not how it ended... Ronald... how i miss your smile and voice... browsing thru fridae and found many pple attached... is this my retibution? condamned to be alone coz of all the hurt i bring abt to pple... i dunno... i miss being with someone... Dun cry out loud... just keep it inside... learn how to hide your feelings... Fly high and proud... and if you should fall... remember you almost had it all... well at least i once had a love tt really mattered... at least i once had frenz whom i really can call dear... at least now i still have frenz.. altho we may not contact tt often... i know i mean a lot to them... how i wish time would just freeze when things are a lot simplier and less painful... i had forgotten how it feels to be free and happy like a child... the carefree life of chilhood... i dun wanna be all by myself... i miss the company of those from long ago... memories... tt's all tt's left now... jukebox[celine dion all by myself] In Solitude at 3:39 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||