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was chatting online just now and yet another ignores me after seeing my pic... i already gave up hope... i lost count on those who ignores me after seeing my pic... i lost count on those who brush me off wf "not my type" and decides to keep quiet... i lost count on the times when i thought i can make a new fren but hopes got dash... i give up... i really do... i m screwing my life up... how many frenz do i have? those who really know me... a few? not even a handful... ajs? a couple? i dunno... i tried... i really did... hard... tried to change my looks... change my life... change the way i dress... but... how many times do i get rejected? who actually is willing to go beyond the surface... i surrender fate... i always thought i can make myself better... can get frenz and someone to like me... but how many? i can't seem to make new frenz, pple are ignoring me and refusing to go deeper.... i always piss off who are frenz... then they dun really tok anymore... white flag... i m wrong... at least till now... no one within the circle are willing to put down first impression and try to get to kow u... no one is willing to go beyond my surface... i m tired... it is always me giving and outputting... who do i have to be by my side? i m beginning to hate myself... nobody really loves me anyway... Another day has past Another day alone Another day without someone Just me, silently alone Everyday I hoped Everyday I wait Everyday, a brand new day With hopes anew, I’ll wait Someone out there I longed Someone out there for me Someone out there to make today A day just for me i guess tt person will never come... Sitting alone in this lonely night Pondering about all the things went by Giving up hope, I let a sigh Knowing that i have lost the battle Fate! You win! I should know by now Man can never beat your power I resign myself nothing I can do Except sitting down here alone in the dark never mind... i can't seem to write anything decent lately... jukebox[kyo's blog music] In Solitude at 1:50 am 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||