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well... nov is coming to an end... will be real busy wif church soon... sch starting on 13 dec and well... kinda look forward to it... have not been updating much in this period coz well... just no mood to...
was reading someone's blog just now... wanna tell him this: cheer up... you know... sometimes it hurts to have expectations becoz we wanna prove to others tt hey... we can do it... when we do... we push ourselves harder...when we dun... we blame and condemn ourselves, forgetting tt we once done it... i use to go thru all tt... till i came to know tt it does not really matter how others view me... i wanna live my own life... it is though... coz i still am trying hard to live to the expectations of the pple ard me... but as i progress... i learn to love myself more... coz if we dun love ourselves... who would (except God lah)? it hurts sometimes to sit down there alone... sometimes i just sat downa nd cry... coz i can't take it anymore... all the sorrows and stress... i have a small book underneath my bed... when i need to write something... i will take it out and write in it... then cry it out... all these will help... wadeva it is... ur group of frenz will always be here for u... i know i will... coz i really wanna care... feeling low lately... apart from the breakup, been feelin stressed by my household... my dad's deliberate delay of bills so tt we will clear it for him and my grams non stop nagging and my elder bro's immature mindset... i do wonder sometimes why mum has to go so early... if she is still ard... maybe life would be easier... maybe i got to enjoy my childhood more... i never really did enjoy it... having to make sure my bro and sis dun get into trouble ever since the day mum left... i was forced to mature... and now... i feel so tired... so weary... but i guess if all these dun happen, i wun be the tim i am now... i will carry on... jukebox[faye wong tian kong] In Solitude at 3:58 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||