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after the hectic rush of all my project... finally can quiet down and settle for some updates of this f-ed up life...
Some brief updates as a whole: my class is officially outcasting me... there is an event going on... and the whole class is invited... cannot consider whole class coz i was not invited... although i wun be able to make it... at least ask... but well they dun like me... first was Angel...who think i like her...bitch... then is Joey and Zhao Na... then now Jasmine and group is kinda away and avoidant... i feel soooo useless in my interpersonal relationship... is there anything wrong wif me... to pple... i m like a confident and somewad arrogant guy... but how many really know how much i struggle wif the avoidant they made me face... there seem to be no one in class i can talk to...let alone trust... and i still have 3 years in the poly... life is miserable here... went to towelclub not long ago... it seem like a nice place for relaxation... not there for anything ok... submitted most of my projects now... only CADD, ECT, and RWP... 1 presentation 1 report and 1 drawing... feeling very pissed now... wif myself actually... i m screwing my drawing up, screwing my interpersonal relationship wif my fren, my education and basically my life... actually a little sucidal but well... i wun... i would wallow in self pity... condemn and swear at myself but wun suicide... wadeva... i deserve to be put to death dun i... going home to do the drawing then see how things goes... hopefully i can have a fresh start wif my relation wif my class come next sem but i doubt it would work out well... i feel like crying... In Solitude at 5:23 pm 0 shared in solitude | ||||||||||||